LISA POV
A month has passed since Jennie is no longer in my life. I've tried to move on but my heart is till longing for her presence. The way she smiled at me never gets old. The way we touched each other at night makes me miss her more. Does Jennie miss me at night nowadays or she is happy with V? I cannot let her be with me if V makes her happy. That is how deep my love for her. I am willing to hurt myself so that she can be happy. I love her so much that I'm willing to let go of what we had for her to smile again.
Ella rarely smiles nowadays because she is still sad of how Jennie left her that day. I thought of trying to make her happy by buying her a new television at home. Usually she only watched it at Jennie's parents' house. Speaking of them, Jennie did not even contact them and leave them with me. I love them just like my parents so I worked day and night to make sure they are okay and have enough to eat. They are sad of what happen to me but still loves me none the less. Every day, Ella and my mother in law reminded me of how Jennie looked like making me miss her more every day.
"Hey Ella, Mommy got something for you here..." Ella came in running to me and jumped happily for the first time seeing a new television at home.
"Mommy, is this for me?!! Are you sure Mommy?" She is smiling while holding the box tracing it everywhere.
"Of course it is... Anything for you baby! I love you so much! Remember that ok..." I kissed her forehead and she smiled back at me sadly.
"Eomma used to say that to me... but I love you more now since it is just both of us..." She giggles and I gave her a cheeky smile to avoid my sadness. I don't want Ella to experience sadness that I had right now. She deserved to be happy.
Jisoo and Chaeng came over to check out the television as we live in a poor village. Having television is privileged opportunities.
"Yow yow Lisa.... New televisionnnnn!! Can we watch too?" I nod while laughing at Chaeng who is jumping beside the television.
"OMG Chu... I can watch food channel here.... OMG OMG..." I was laughing with Ella when she interrupts Chaeng.
"Auntie Chaeng... I want to watch cartoon tooo......" Ella giggles and Chaeng laugh.
"Okay okay we are going to watch it in turns... got it?" Ella nod happily and they both jumped in happiness.
Jisoo and I opened the box and set the television up. Once done, we open the channel and it is not that clear but I somehow heard Jennie's name making me correct the signal as fast as I can. The moment I saw the television, my tears dropped again looking at Jennie wearing wedding gown smiling marrying V in the church. Since she is an artist, her weddings is being recorded for the whole Korea to see and she was smiling brightly at V and the moment they kissed, I kneeled in front of the television crying softly.
I saw Ella's reaction suddenly when she just stares blankly at the television clenching her fist. She looked so angry as her face changed from white to a red tomato colour. I am currently looking at her trembling and I can see her tears dropped too.
" I HATE YOU EOMMMAAA!! I HATE YOU FOR LEAVING MOMMY!! I DON'T WANT ANYTHING TO DO WITH YOU ANYMOREE...." She shouted at the television and ran to the room where I kept all Jennie's posters and Music CDs.
"Ellaaaa!!" I stand up looking running towards her and what I saw broke my hearts.
Ella is crying her hearts out kneeling in front of Jennie's poster she gathered in front of her. Her cries was so loud saying she hates Jennie.
"I HATE YOU EOMMAAA ... I HATE YOUUUU... I HATE YOU SOOO MUCH!!" She cried and tore all the posters apart making it flies all over the room. She throws all the CDs around the room while crying non-stop. My heart hurts seeing her this sad as she was always trying to be strong for me and herself after Jennie left us.
