JENNIE POV
Today is the day where I need to divorce the one and only my true love. My Lisa, the one who vowed to love me, and I will love her back, but everything crashes the moment I came to auditioned for V.
"You ready to be my wife soon after your divorce?" I kept quiet not wanting to talk to him. I've been crying all night and now wearing my normal shades to hide my sadness. Lisa will definitely know if she saw my eyes. She is the only one who knows how to read me.
We reached the lawyer's office earlier and I signed the paper like he needs me too. Then suddenly the door open and I saw Lisa and Ella. I pretended to look at them blankly even though my heart races happy to see them in good condition. I need to do it fast or else it will all fail because I cannot stand seeing how happy Ella is and how sad Lisa's face is. I know she's been crying but she stayed strong for our daughter.
"Oh Lili... please forgive for what I've done.. Please do remember that I never forget our vows even it is the end of my life.. I love you baby..." I talked by myself trying to stop my tears.
"I've already signed the papers, you just need yours and we are done" I told Lisa so that she will hate me faster. I cannot bear seeing her face pleading me to come back. I want too but it will be no good for poor people like her to protect herself. So I am doing this for us. Lisa suddenly help on my wrist softly and I missed her touch. She will never hold me harsh. She will always treat me softly.
"Lisa, please stop holding my hand.. V is looking.. Oh Lili... I missed you so damn much!" The only person who heard this is me because I'm talking inside my head missing her so much.
"Nini, please don't do this. We promised remember? Don't you miss Ella here?" Ella looked at us confused and I felt really bad for it.
"Eomma.. it's me Ella.. I am healthier now.. I miss you.. Mommy miss you.. Don't you miss us?" I saw V looked at Lisa's hand holding me and he changed his expression. I quickly snatched my hand away to show V about what I promised him. He smiled slowly dragging me out of the room. I looked at Lisa for the last time.
"We are done Lisa, please do not look for me or bring Ella with you to change my mind. She is your daughter now and please take care of her. I have already given you the money. So just take care of her studies and well-beings. We are not meant to be together. And please send my regards to my parents. I will be living in the city with V from now on" My heart hurt with the words I say because I know how I am a good liar. Lisa's tears fell down and I almost try to hug her, but I saw V, he is ready with his phone if I really bailed on him. He is a jerk and I hope he rot in hell.
The last word from Lisa shatters my heart into pieces. This is not what I want but I need too for their safety so I swallowed my pride looking at her blankly.
"How can you forget us so fast Nini... I still love you until now but I will sign this if this bring you happiness. Good bye Nini... Remember, I always love you like what our vows said.. You might have forgotten about it but I will keep it until my last breath. Thank you for saving Ella's life..." She signed the papers and there goes our marriage. Our vows that we build. V dragged me out and I heard Ella ran to me screaming.
"Eommmaaa, please don't goooo!! Eommmaaaaaaa.... Don't leave me and mommy alone...." She is crying and I saw how Lisa ran up to her and hug her from behind. My heart hurts and I never look back because my tears drop. Luckily I wore my shades so I managed to wipe it. V took different car to celebrate his winnings. In the car, I saw how Lisa soothe Ella crying on her shoulders and how she carries her to her motorcycle.
I cried and cried again knowing I will never be with them anymore. V won and I am his slave. In a month he will be marrying me and I will be media play doll looking really happy beside him even though God knows how I am already dead without my Lisa and Ella beside me. Throughout the drive I cried my heart out saying how sorry I am to Lisa by myself.
"Lili, I am dead the moment I signed the paper. Please take care of Ella for me and remember how I will never stop loving you even though we are no longer together"
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It has been a month since I last heard about Lisa but Irene always update me about them. I cried the moment I saw Ella walked with Lisa to where she worked. Ella has been reading on her own and I really felt guilty because I used to be her everything and now Lisa is doing the job while searching for money. I cannot send more money because V blocked me. Irene tried to help once but again she got threaten and obviously Seulgi got the beatings. Seulgi is really a good cop, she is trying to check on V's activity but since she is still new, she got trouble to pass through as a lot of them has been bribe by V.
Sometimes when Irene sent me the video, I saw Lisa sit at our favourite location near the river and she will look up letting the wind messes her hair. Sometimes she will cry and most of the time, Ella will come and fix her hair and kissed her cheeks. I cried because I know how sad Lisa is and she never even put hatred on me. She just continue with her life supporting Ella like how she promised me.
I can see all media recording our weddings and I need to smile for them. I did and V kissed my lips sealing our vows about the wedding. I gave a short simple message about the wedding to make sure everyone saw us as happy couple like what V wants.
That night, V took me into his arms without my permission, but I must do it because he keeps on threatening me. He got drunk and took me while I am not willing to even gave my body to him. I took my shower that night crying.
"I am dirty! I am dirty! I hate this life! Why do I need to live with this scumbag... He forced me while he is still drunk!" I hate my life because now I am no longer touched only by Lisa but by him. My body is only for her but now I am dirty. I cried the whole night and the next morning, V left me like nothing happen. Not that I care because I pretended to sleep ignoring him.
His business went well with the wedding as everyone thought it is a happy ending between me and him but reality is only me and Irene knows how I cried every night or every show.
There is never one day I did not cry, and I think my tears will be dry one day because I can never forgive myself of what I have done. I left Lisa and let her miss me while I stayed a good life here even though I am not happy.
I just hope that Lisa will know one day what happen even though I am no longer living this earth anymore. I want her to know that I never stopped from loving her and Ella. They are my life and forever will. I hope one day V will be caught and will rot in hell.
Even it is just hope, I am willing to wait until the time comes...
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I will continue tomorrow but right now enjoy Jennie's side of the story.
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TinieT4
