𝙖𝙜𝙖𝙞𝙣𝙨𝙩 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙬𝙤𝙧𝙡𝙙 - 𝙜𝙚𝙤𝙧𝙜𝙚 𝙢𝙚𝙢𝙚𝙪𝙡𝙤𝙪𝙨

consequences

shit i don't even know where the toilet is. and if i open my mouth i will puke.

i franticly look around and grab the kitchen bin, knocking over something as i do so. george hears the commotion and notices me leant over the counter, struggling to get my hair out the way. he dashes over and holds my hair back as i cough and puke into the tin canister.

once i've finished, i stand up straight again and wipe the chunks from my mouth.

"sorry about your bin mate, thanks for holding my hair back though" i apologise.

he chuckles. "it's fine, don't worry about it"

by now the boys have clocked onto what happened and are turned around to face the doorway. as i step out, i chuckle and clumsily curtsey, they all start clapping as i make my way back to the sofa. george follows behind me.

"feel better for that?" james teases.

"i mean the night isn't complete until at least one person throws up is it" i joke. the boys agree with me and we make small talk for the next hour.

i learn that they're all youtubers. yep. every single one of them.

which is bad. because if i'm spotted with one of them and alot of people see, they could find me again. and my location won't be a secret anymore. i'm happy here. and i don't want them to ruin that.

i can't let them find me. especially him.

i also learn that james, will and stephen have girlfriends, who are all so pretty. like so so so pretty. and seem so lovely. can you tell i kinda hate girls in a friend way and love them in a 'i want u all to myself please date me' way?

the boys also ask me if i have any socials which i obviously say i don't. it's easier if i just half explain. i tell them how i don't want any of my portuguese friends finding me as i kind of left a bit suddenly, and it would be easier if i didn't speak to them again than explaining everything.

isn't really a lie but i just couldn't stay there after my parents passed.

they reacted pretty well, and seemed to believe me. another lie i've gotten away with. i've honestly lost count of how many lies i've told since i've been here. my whole persona to them is made up. i will tell them the truth one day and explain more, but theres no need to now.

we talked for a little while longer about literally everything. the boys were so easy to talk to, fun to be around and just great people.

i've never had a good experience with girl friends, too much shit revolves around them and i don't really understand them. i would rather date them than be friends with them tbh.

the next thing i knew we were all passed out on the couch. will i remember this in the morning? who knows. who the fuck knows.