𝐅𝐈𝐑𝐒𝐓 𝐋𝐎𝐕𝐄 | binsung ✔

17

they hugged for what felt like forever, none of them pulling away. as seconds passed, changbin seemed to realise the slight change of the younger's state as his breathing pace start to slow down.

the grip on his shirt seemed to have loosened but rather it gave him a sense of longing, as if he didn't wanna let go. the more jisung could feel his warm comfort, the more he was beginning to calm down.

it wasn't long when he eventually pulled away, no longer harshly crying; his face however, was covered in dry stains of tears. he quickly wiped the remaining tears strolling down his face as he smiled softly.

"thank you..." he said with a gentle smile.

changbin smiled in relief, eventually seeing a new side of jisung he didn't know he could see. it had made him feel even closer on the other hand, relieved that he was able to release all of the emotions he'd been keeping throughout the years.

maybe there was something more about him behind his smile.

"it's okay, i'm just glad you could cry it all out. that's why i'm here." changbin then replied, smiling a bit wider.

this made jisung smile even more, glittering eyes staring back at him. "oh gosh, this is embarrassing. i can't believe you saw my weak side, i'm meant to be flirty as heck." he answered with a small chuckle, finally wiping all of his tears away.

"that's fine and you shouldn't be embarrassed. we've all been through our moments, we're humans with emotions after all." changbin reasoned with a smile.

"yeah, i just didn't wanna show you my weak side." he said with a small sniff.

"as i said, it's fine. it's not like what i think or feel about you have changed or anything. in fact, if you didn't show any sides like that then i would've thought you were inhuman." changbin joked, causing jisung to release a small laugh.

jisung didn't say anything for a moment, just too busy focusing on recovering from his mental breakdown. it wasn't usual for him to show anyone this, he wasn't used to it at all - in fact, it was the first.

and knowing that changbin was the first one for him to show it all, he couldn't help but fall for him even more. despite not being sure whether or not the older felt the same as him, he could say that changbin was far more different than the others.

it made him feel something stronger, his love for him rapidly increasing each second passed. when he was done calming down, he eventually looked up to face him, smiling even harder than before.

"i'm just not used to this." he said, not being able to hold back in his excited smile.

"do you not show your vulnerable side to anyone often?" changbin questioned, curious eyes glancing over to him.

the younger shook his head in response, now playing with the grass beneath him. "not really, i don't think i've showed anyone this beside you. you're the first."

he watched as changbin's mouth slowly went in agape, not believing what he'd just said. he had never showed anyone? how was that possible? that was when a thought ran inside his head, causing him to realise something.

it had reminded him of his younger self.

changbin continued to stare at jisung, slowly but steadily learning more about him. "you remind me of myself." he almost muttered, making him look at him confusingly.

"i do?" jisung questioned in slight shock, feeling even more drawn towards him.

all he did was nod in response, jisung finding himself listen in carefully. "yeah, of my younger self. i rarely told them about my feelings and i didn't really show anyone my weak side. i just kept it all inside and covered it with a smile when inside, i was falling apart. it was a dark moment."