Finding me

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Edited: Luvhani Dathi-Praise Mudau

Cover: Caprynda Munyai

If only the moon knows then it's safe
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"I believe that" I don't want this to go any further

She is in my house and already giving me threats? This has to be the villainous thing to do considering her current situation. Well I will try to not to take it seriously or else I won't be nice to her anymore. Why do they both think that I have anything positive on K, I hate him.

I'm done cooking pap and chicken livers, she's been talking about how much she's craving chicken livers and I remembered that I had them in my fridge.

"You need to teach me how to cook this dish, it was so delicious" Dikeledi

We are done eating, I will do the dishes tomorrow morning. Dikeledi on the other hand has her phone with her, I'm tired and full so I'll sleep now.

I'm feeling much better today, I think it's because I have not seen either of my problems today except Dikeledi of cause. She is leaving today so I will be at peace again, I don't want to be threatened in my own house. I have been working the whole day today at my desk without any interruption.

"Hi Nondi" speak of the devil

"Hi Mr Seroka, how can I help you?" I don't have time for any of this

He sits on my desk, I don't want him to be so comfortable around me especially here after everything that has happened.

"Are you okay?" Tebogo still calm

"Yes but you are here now" I say

"I need your help with something, I can't tell you now obviously because you are in a bad mood so I will come back later" Tebogo

He gets up and walk away, I think he can be mean without even expressing it on his face. I did not know that he was easily irritated like that.

"You two are really close aren't you?" the same nosy lady

"And you are always on other people's business" I'm annoyed

She's shocked by my response, well good for her.

"I was..." I don't want to listen to her anymore

"Please respect other people's privacy especially mine. I really don't appreciate people in my space" I am done talking

I'm outside the building now walking around at the parking lot, I don't think this is okay at all. My life being in the open like that everywhere and my actions getting misinterpreted. No one ever cared to ask for my opinion but no they all make conclusions based on what they see. My mother used to say seeing is deceiving, am I the only one who always gives people chances before they start being threats to me?

"Are you okay?" I don't want anyone to see me like this

"Hey look at me" It's Tebogo

I do not want to talk, I'm too emotional for that.

"Please let me be, I want to be alone" I fight his hand trying to touch me

"I'm not leaving you like this, why are you crying?" Tebogo

I'm now crying in his arms, I don't want to go back in there not today. I feel horrible being mean like that to him, although I feel like I had to do it, it was wrong. I want to go home and give up, I am good at that.