Finding me

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Edited: Luvhani Dathi-Praise Mudau

Cover: Caprynda Munyai

Photo: Tshisikhawe Evolet Bulannga as Lufuno Tshivhase

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"The phone calls, emails and texts between Thabelo and Rudzi, I had a friend hack her laptop" Mpho

Is that even legal?
"Send them to me please" I say

I know he understood that I'm more concerned about the content not the evidence at hand, he didn't say anything about it but agreed and hung up. I wonder how he will send it to me, I will have to read it now before going to sleep, I don't think I will survive the suspense.

"Nondi, I need to have a word with you" Dikeledi

I didn't realize she was there, now I'm wondering how long she has been standing there silently.

"What's wrong?" I ask

"What did Xiluva say about the video?" Dikeledi

I don't know where to start because she is the one who suggested that I should plant a video recorder there for evidence. I also don't know why Dikeledi is suddenly interested in Xiluva's feelings towards her affair with K, is she feeling guilty?

"I don't know, but you know how she feels about him" I say

That's a lie, well I can defend myself by saying that I haven't seen her or talked to her after the meeting so I don't know her reaction to the video being out there.

"I do have feelings for him too, I found out after we started messing around that she's head over heels for him." she says defensively

Do I have to say anything?

"I hope she didn't post that video because I will kill her myself" Dikeledi continues

"No one is killing anyone, Dikeledi don't do something you will regret" I say

She folds her arms around her chest.

"If she is capable of doing that to me, why should I be considerate?" Dikeledi

I know how it feels like to be disrespected in such a way that you can't even begin to get your pride back, I have been shamed for years by the same family I did nothing but love and honor. I wished nothing but blessings for them, how could I ever think of hurting them?

"When people hurt you, you don't always have to get even with them. Who is worse now, you or them?" I say

She looks at me like I just pointed out the obvious

"K was right, you are a Saint" Dikeledi

What?

"Huh" I say

"Here I was thinking you'd be the one who posted the video" Dikeledi

Is she trying to get in my head? It won't work Dikeledi. I might be a Saint and be the worst to give judgment but I'm not stupid enough to fall for such tricks.

"You are here but still don't trust me?" I ask surprised

"I don't trust anyone but as I said you are a saint" Dikeledi says and gets inside the house.

There's so much about the conversation that left me wondering and speechless. Dikeledi is crazy to want to lie down next to someone she doesn't trust, she also feels nothing about her betrayal and is convinced that I am a Saint since K said so. Why would he know who I am when he hardly ever sees me or talks to me? I don't want to focus on Dikeledi or K at the moment, I am way too tired for that.
I'm not hungry, my head hurts so badly, I will lie down just to relax maybe I will gain some strength to do some things after. Dikeledi's phone seems to be so interesting because she's been staring at it and typing for a while, I just want to rest my eyes a bit.