The Miracle We Met

Chapter 26 - The Confession

I was so shocked because we haven't talked about Suho after that incident. We have been talking regularly but no one ever took his name.

I never asked him how was he or what was he doing. Chanyeol too never said anything about him. We both know that I will become uncomfortable by it.

So why suddenly today? Why he said his name out of blue?

That too he was asking, 'is he still important to me?' Why he wants to know it? Why now?

I was looking at him silently but lots of thoughts were bursting inside my head.

"I knew..you will not answer it." Chanyeol said changing the direction towards  the oceans.

I wanted to say something but he spoke again..

"I know..you still care about him..you are thinking about him at this point of time also..you still miss him..more than me.." his voice seemed to be disappointed.

"No... listen.." I tried to speak.

He was looking continuously at the sea and speaking.

"You never looked at me, you never considered me..no matter how many times I tried to show you but you were always looking at him."

"You were the first person with whom I talked about my past, my friends knew but they never asked nor I talked about it..you know why? Because I started feeling comfortable with you..

"I guess that was the first step towards you.
Next day, when I saw you crying in that garden, I wanted to do something so that you can smile again. It was unbearable to see you in that state. I was confused too why I am feeling in such a way suddenly."

"In the party at our hotel, when I saw you coming towards us, I wanted to freeze that moment..it was just beautiful."

"I was so excited to give the gift we bought for you that day. I wanted to capture that moment so that I can remember it for long time."

"I woked up whole night, editing the video so that I can give it to you.. telling you that you are a princess for me..whether you believe it or not."

"I was feeling so bad that after coming back I couldn't call you. Finally, I did it that day, I was so happy hearing your voice after a long time."

"But things started changing when I saw you and hyung getting closer. You started avoiding my calls..I was so helpless that time.. everything was unbearable. I was trying so hard to control myself. Finally I stopped calling you..and you didn't even noticed it."

He paused for a sec. I was still looking at him with teary eyes and he was looking in front, expressing all feelings which he went through all these months.

"After that photo went viral, our company restricted us from talking to you. On that day when I called you, I had a huge fight with Suho hyung and manager. They were stopping me again from calling you."

"Suho too??" I was shocked why Suho said like that.

"Yes, according to him, that was the best way to protect you."

He paused again.

"But I didn't believe it. I knew you were suffering more than us. That time you really needed our support but we couldn't do anything. I couldn't support you that time, it started building a guilt that time. So after long argue, I finally called you. After a long time I was feeling relieved that day."

"Don't you have any clue why I am saying all these things?" He asked looking in my eyes.

I was still looking at him with unsureness.

He turned around towards me and grab my shoulders with both of his hand and said,

"Because I like you..not only just like you..
Sarangae"

"And I don't want any answer from you. I just wanted to tell you about my feelings. I.."

I didn't know how to react..
I was still looking at him in total amazement. He took his hands away from my shoulder and still he was going to say something when suddenly someone came..

"You two are here, your friends are searching you there. It's time for "phere" that's why they are searching you."

"Thanks we are coming.." Chanyeol said and we moved towards Mandap.

Everyone was standing near their chairs. As soon as we came near Mandap, all four of them came too.

"Where were you?" Rakhi asked.
"Is everything alright?" Manisha asked too.
They got worried just by looking at my face and eyes.

I nodded in yes and asked them to look towards mandap.

The rituals were still going on. I was physically present there but mentally I was not. I was constantly thinking about what Chanyeol said.

I used to think he just cares about me as a friend. I didn't know he has that feelings from so long. I was so selfish towards him. Everything he said about me was true. I never looked at him. I was ashamed of me.

I didn't dare to look at him. I tried avoiding him. But many times I saw him looking at me.

It was 2:30am and the rituals were still in process. Then suddenly, all three boys stood up. Manisha and Rakhi stood up too.

"What happened?" I asked them.

"Don't you know, Chanyeol has flight in the early morning" Manisha said.

"He needs to leave for airport now, it's already 3:30 hrs journey." Rakhi said.

'Oh yes! I didn't even asked him when he will go, how stupid I am'

"How will he go?" I didn't dared to ask him directly, so I asked Deep & Shakti.

They said that he will first go to hotel, change his clothes and after packing, he will leave for airport. They said that they will drop him to airport.

"No..I told you..I am perfectly fine..you don't need to go that far, just for me. You too have flight afterwards, it will be great hectic for you too. You did it yesterday but I can't do this to you again" Chanyeol said.

He finally convinced them not to accompany him.

I thought to go with him till hotel but I don't know why I didn't gathered much courage.

Everyone one was walking towards the main gate. I was walking slowing and was at the last.. still thinking what should I do.

I called, "Chanyeol.. please wait"

Everyone turned around but they left me and Chanyeol alone there. They went near car. Still there was much gap, they couldn't hear us..

"I'm really sorry for being selfish towards you. I will try my level best to.."

Chanyeol smiled and hugged me.

He patted on my back and said,

"Gwaenchanha..I can wait"