Mavery

Twenty-nine

It has been four days-counting this day, since Austin went off tour. And i am totally burned-out because of my stupid memory.

"Tristan you say?" Austin asked from the other line. I sighed and sat up. "Yeah, i just remembered yesterday when we-" i stopped myself for accidentally spilling the secret that i went out with Adah. "What did you do yesterday?" he immediately asked obviously getting my stupidity.

I mentally tapped my head as i carefully hopped out of the bed. "Where-did-you-" i stopped him. "Babe, please i just-"

"Mavery fucking answer me." his voice suddenly seemed so stressed, scared and worried. He didn't even shout but i am a hundred percent sure that he's pissed.

"I went out with Adah, it's-for the wedding a-and when i was picking for the flowers, i noticed a guy whose obviously taking pictures of me-" he cut me off again.

"Mavery, can we talk about this later? I uhh-gotta get going." he suddenly said. And i don't understand why he has to reject my explanation.

"Austin wait, i'm sorr-" by that, the line ended. I bit my lips and shut my eyes closed.

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After taking a quick and warm shower, i headed downstairs to make myself some food to start the already stressing day with. Adah and Kyle weren't around. It's their day off, well i insisted they both rest and do things they personally like. I can totally take care of myself in the first place.

I turned off the coffee machine and as if on cue, the doorbell rang. I sipped my coffee once and walked straightly to the front door.

"Hell yeah, this house is too big for me to just walk around..." i said as i slide my hand to my bump. I grabbed the knob and opened the door quickly. My mouth gaped open to what i just saw.

"Flowers delivery from Mr. Austin to his beautiful wife, Mavery." the deliveryman greeted me as he hand me the bouquet of another beautiful sunflowers.

"Wife huh," i said laughing as i admire the beauty of the flowers. "He told me to address you like that so," he said chuckling. I giggled, "Thanks and have a good day!" i said happily.

"And hey," i added causing him to re-acquire his steps to face me. "I was just been wondering if how this goes. You know..." thankfully he's smart enough to get what i was trying to say. "Oh, Mr. Post visited our shop and picked seven types of sunflowers to be reserved and delivered later. I guess, this was the fourth?" he said as he smile.

I didn't help to giggle in front of him which i think he'd find annoying. "Yeah, i think this is the fourth. You guys have the most beautiful flowers in the world." i said and he laughed. "Thank you for that! I hope you don't mind, but can i ask where is Kyle? I miss him personally picking up the flowers for you." he said.

"You know him! Well, he's just off for today. I'm sure he'll be visiting the shop tomorrow so, hope you guys catch up." i said. "Of course, that'd be great. Have a lovely day!" he said before leaving.

I got my ass inside and put the flowers on the countertop as i continue to dive i to my coffee. I smiled as i look at the flowers again. After having a brunch, i fixed the flowers and put them into a vase.

I debated with myself over the type of sunflowers i recently memorized. And specifically where this new one belongs to.

I made a final touch and scooped a step back. I narrowed my sight to the flowers, chinning.

"Those are Floristan!" i shouted as i start to check if i was right, and i really was. After confirming my crazy own game, i noticed that it has been hours since Austin and i talked. And he haven't even texted me. I sighed as i started to type him a message.

'Hey babe, got a floristan today! Can't wait to receive different ones! Thank you so much, i love you!'

"Is this too short?" i asked myself and ended up sending it anyway. Couple of hours passed but he still hasn't texted me. I sighed as i felt sleepy watching some romantic series on Netflix. "Ooohh, so heavy..." i whispered complaining how my eyes got heavier in just a split second. Having another human inside you really is so hard.

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"I'm sorry, but they're gone." the doctor said as he look down.

My world stops. In just a couple of seconds, i didn't manage to breathe. Spending my whole life with them wouldn't even be enough for me. I need them, i love them.

"T-they're..." i collapsed on the floor still cannot believe what was happening. The tears kept on streaming down my face. My whole body was shaking and my vision was turning into a complete blur.

Gasping for air to breathe, i felt an arm wrapped around me. Giving me the warmth i genuinely needed. I ended up gripping to his forearm as i continue to cry-so unbelievably hard. His hand couldn't stop rubbing my back hoping to ease even the slightest of the pain. He pulled me to him and hugged me tightly.

"Mom... Dad..." i whispered between my sobs. "It's alright... I'm here, I'm here..." he whispered. I slowly separated from him and looked up to his already red eyes. He showed a sympathic smile and ran his thumb against my cheeks. "I'll always be here... You're not going to be alone..." he whispered as his eyes turned watery. I managed to witness the tears from his sympathy.

And i couldn't imagine how more painful it would be having this tragedy without him rubbing my back to stop me from crying, hugging me to ease the pain, wiping my tears away and most of all without him saying those words to genuinely say that i am not alone and i'll never be.

I laced my arms to his neck as i continue to sob in his arms. "Austin!..." i cried.

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I opened my eyes and caught myself drowning from tears. I heavily sighed as i sit up, resting my head on my hands. "M-Mom... D-Dad..." i whispered as i continue to cry.

This time, the pain i felt from my dream worsened. I miss them... I miss them so so much...  I wish i could even remember the moments we've shared together. I hate this... 

"Austin..." i whispered as i reach for my phone to call him. It went straight to voicemail. I tried again but i think he's in the middle of something important. I threw my phone to my side and tried to calm myself down.

This is the reality, i am not dreaming right now and i have to accept that Austin couldn't do what he did then. I inhaled and exhaled numerously and i finally managed to calm down.

I decided to leave him text messages so that he could still call me anytime of the night.

'I remembered something again from dreaming. And it's making me awfully sad right now. Call me if you have time okay? I love you.'