Mavery

Thirty-six

Austin's POV

I cannot believe that i'm doing this... Letting her slip away from me even if it's too torturing. Now, here i am, giving her what she asked. Before passing the door, i looked back inside our room and by just imagining myself sleeping on our bed alone was enough to kill me. I looked down at her suitcase that i was holding. If i could just make her stay... There's nothing i wanted to do right now but that.

I bit my lips and tried my best not to cry.

If i could just turn back the time, i would... How could i let this happen to us... How could i cause her this?

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Getting down the stairs, i saw Kyle standing right in front. I stopped and put the case beside me. I looked at him.

"Of course she don't wanna see me..." i whispered cracked voice. He walked to me and slightly tapped my back. "I'm sorry man... I know this is hard but trust me, everything's going to be alright." he whispered. 

I looked at him and just made a weak nod before slowly dragging back the suitcase to him. He sighed as he takes it. I sat at the first step of the stairs, face falming. The moment i heard our front door slightly slammed, i did not fight to cry. The tears i was holding streamed down uncontrollably. 

My emotions hugged all parts of me when i heard the car engine. This is the very  start of her getting away from me. This would be night where i couldn't see or even hear her voice. The very night where she  couldn't be by my side when we sleep. 

I feel like i could not even breathe. If i could still take this last chance to make her stay with me... to make her talk to me at least... I sat there crying while watching her car from the big glass window entering the driveway. If i still can run after you i would...

"Mavery... N-no... no."  i sobbed..

After a couple of minutes, i heard the front door slammed open. I immediately stood up. "Mavery-" 

It was Matt. I sat back down. He loudly sighed. "Post..." he said as he walks to me. "Post what is-" i cutted him by standing up, getting my keys from his hand. 

"No!" he shouted as he tries to pull back the keys. I stopped and just look at him. 

"I'm going to see my son." i weakly said. 

"What do you mean? Are you crazy!? You're just gonna kill yourself-" i interrupted him again by snatching the keys from him for the second time.

"Stop! What exactly are you trying to do!?" he shouted louder. I put my hands on top of his shoulders. "She's gone... I can't be here right now... I don't wanna be here... I want no one else to see but my son..." i cried.

He took off my hands slowly from his shoulders and tapped my cheek. "I know i know, i understand. But i am coming with you." he said then i nodded and started to walk outside.

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I know that she's hurting but i couldn't let a day pass without even trying. I'd do everything for her. I'd give my life for her.

"What really happened Austin?" Matt asked sitting next to me. I shortly looked at him then down to my still shaking hand.

"I fucked up. I fucked up so so bad." i whispered. "It's so unimaginably fast. It felt like i was just kissing Mavery's hand and feeling my son kicking yesterday... but they both left me now. I lost them both-all because of me." i added.

"No one wants this to happen Austin and you have to trust me when i say that Mavery knows that you did not want all of these to happen." he said slightly tapping my shoulder.

"I can't even remember how many times i tried to tell her. Matt, i tried, but i fucked up." i stopped my tears from showing.

"Man, just give her time. Trust me, she'll be alright talking to you when she had the time she needed. She loves you okay? She loves you so much, i witnessed that." he whispered.

I just gave him a couple of nod before getting back in the car.

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"Can you just drive around for a moment?-just don't drive me home yet." i said as i slightly bump my head on the window, closing my eyes.

"Hey, do you wanna know how we met?" i said staring blankly at the empty driveway. "Go on, i'd love to know." he said focusing on the way.

"Dre and i were in a lit night club. And as you already know, Adah was Dre's ex girlfriend. So that night, Dre invited me to drink 'cause he said that he fuckep up his relationship with Adah. He cheated. So in the middle of the fun a woman just came to us and punched Dre. I was left in shock, staring at this very cool looking beautiful ninja woman. I did not even think about Dre you know." i said letting out a light chuckle.

"What the fuck? Really?" Matt laughed.

"Yeah so i'm glad you aren't hurt, given the fact that you were with her most of the time." i shortly answered.

"That very night, i fell in ove with her. I actually ask her out but she thinks that i am drunk. I even told her she's beautiful but she just snobbed me. I waited so desperately every night just to see her. She's... she's perfect..." i whispered closing my eyes.

"You guys have the most beautiful story i have ever heard. Austin can you do something for me?" he asked putting a car into a stop.

I opened my very sored eyes and looked at him.

"Tell me you won't give up on her." he seriously said and that hurt me more.

But it gave me a hint of a clear realization.

"I won't. I fucking won't."