Mavery

Thirty-three

Waking up with an amnesia never crossed my mind even for once, but look at me now, sick, betrayed and hurt. Hurt by those people i love. I'm starting to regret all the events that happened since the day i woke up except the human inside my womb. My baby is the only thing i feel i own right now.

I looked down on my hands while sliding them down to my belly.

"O-ouch..." i whispered as i automatically sat down on the edge of the bed. Closing my eyes, i waited for the tolerable pain to stop. I slowly opened them back only to see a disaster.

I almost forgot that i recently smashed things that reminds me of my relationship with Austin.

"Fuck!" i shouted.

There's nothing i could do but leave. It's the rightest thing to do. I stood up to get most of my things. I cannot take them all after all. After sometime, i finished packing and was leaving the room when i saw Austin just sitting on the hallway floor with his face on his hands-right in front of our bedroom door.

He hysterically stood up the moment he saw me. I looked at his already sored eyes as he still manage to stop the tears from showing.

"M-Mavery... I-i was worried-i thought you were-are-you hurt?" he sutters as he tried to hold my arms and my belly but i stopped him by dragging my suitcase out with a thud. His eyes were darted on it as he open his mouth to say something.

"Figures you know what would happen next" i said looking at him. He looked back to me and sighed.

"Babe-" i cutted him again.

"Do-not." i spat. "Do not tell me not to leave because for sure you knew that one day this'll happen. For how many months?" i added and he just looked down.

"I-i don't know where to start-b-but please.. don't leave me..." he said as he started to cry. I faught all my tears back not wanting to show him that i'm weak.

"You're not this weak. You managed to betray me twice! Lying and pretending for how many months and now you're crying? Get that shit off of you." i shouted and he immediately looked at me.

"I did not pretend. You know how much i love you! Just please... You need to listen to me." his voice is starting to break.

"Need to what? That's a total bullshit! Did you somehow think that i needed to know the truth?! that you are a liar!? And that these were all lies?!" i was shaking.

"I know i sucked, but i only did them because i love you!-" he was stopped from shouting for i slapped him. He froze.

"You fucked a filth and lied to me because you love me...?" i failed. This is how he made me weak.

He was stopped, just staring at my already tired eyes as he cries. He blinked his eyes a couple times and started to sob.

He leaned his head on the wall intentionally bumping his forehead on it. I wiped my tears.

"Why Austin?," I said and he looked at me. "Why did you do this to me?..." i said starting to sob.

He slowly sat on the floor sobbing harder.

I looked at him and started to drag my case but i was stopped by him appearing in front of me.

"Please," he whispered before getting down on his knees. "I can't live without you..." he sobbed while taking my hand. My tears kept on streaming down.

"Believe me, i tried... i tried so hard to tell you, but i didn't have enough courage. If you just give me a chance, i'll tell you everything... Just please-don't..." he cutted himself to look up to me.

"Don't leave me..." he closed his eyes and sobbed on my hands.

It pains me to see him like this. To see him hurt, scared and not even knowing what to do. But we are in no difference. In fact i feel that this confrontation was nonesense at all. There is no sense of endulging in the situation; left with a choice to just deal with the consequences of the things that he did to me. He did this to me, he made me feel this way.

I slowly took my hand from him and he looked up to me waiting for me to say a thing. If i couldn't i would, but it's not like me.

"Aren't those months a chance? Aren't those enough chance?" i said 

"Your son, our child inside of me, isn't him a chance? wasn't him enough chance for you?" i added as i removed his hands away from me.

"N-no no..." he stopped me again by pulling me into his arms, still sobbing. I cried by the feeling of his touch. How could i still feel that i needed his embrace when he's the reason of all this. He sobbed on my shoulder as he hold me tight. How i wish he was innocent... how i wish that all of his lies weren't true...

But this wasn't a dream. This was all true. He lied to me. He betrayed me.

"Austin," i whispered loosing my grip on his back.

"Austin please," i added. Instead of letting me go, he held me tighter, still crying.

"Austin just let me go." i said as i try to pull his arms to seperate from me.

"Please, don't make this harder for me..." i whispered and he slowly let go of me, holding both of my hands.

He started kissing my knuckles as he cries. I am no stone and i did not help to cry as well.

"You were my life Austin... And you know that. You were the only one i got... And you know that too." i whispered as i help myself not to sob.

"Just please..." i managed to say before sobbing. He closed his eyes, held my hand tighter and nodded a couple times before slowly letting go of my hands. I wiped my tears and started to drag my case with me. i slowly passed our room, the man i love not even wanting to look back just to see him crying hard.

Before reaching the stairs, i was stopped.

"M-Mavery y-you're-" I heard Austin as he hurriedly jogged to me.

"O-oh..." i leaned on the staircase holding my bump. The pain was tolerable for seconds but the next thing i knew was Austin holding me, as i see lots of blood on the floor.

"N-no... No... What is happening to me!?"