Unspoken Desire (Completed)

Sana's Past. Sana's Pain.

    Sid called Arun. He picked the call in a second
Sid: Arun Sana ki yeh baat bilkul bahar nhi nikalni chahiye. Kisi bhi tarah uska muh band kara. Agar use paisi chahiye, whatever the amount. Deal with him Arun.
Arun: Don't worry sir. Mai sab handle kar raha hu. Itna bhi mushkil nhi hai. Ek baat bolu sir??
Sid: Bol??
Arun: Sir Sana bahot acchi ladki hai. Uski koi majburi hogi.
Sid: I know Arun. But this is not easy for me too.
Arun. I understand sir. Thek hai aap tension mat lo. I will handle everything.
Sid: Thank you brother.
Arun. No problem sir.
    Sid disconnected the call and looked at the screen. "Shehnaaz kaur Gill and her controversy with the most famous Himanshi khurana". People had trolled her, called her  names, made memes on her. So she had gone through the worst. It has been half an hour since the reality was revealed. He was on the terrace. He wanted to read about her without disturbance. He was pacing the floor. Her scared face came in front of his eyes. The urge to see her was so strong, he ran down to find her. He went into the hall and spotted Preeti. Sana was nowhere to be seen. He rushed to Preeti.
Sid: Kaha hai vo??
Preeti: Sir vo abhi abhi nikli hai ghar jaane ke leye. Uski haalat thek nhi hai.
Sid: What?? Preeti tumne muje call kyu nhi kiya??
Preeti: Sir mai kaisi...
Sid: Accha thek hai mai dekhta hu.
    He rushed to the parking. He tried calling her but her mobile was switched off. It was 12.30 am. How was she going to get an auto at this time?? She should have called me. Her mobile was also switched off. He was angry on her now. He was angry on her for not trusting him. He drove out of the hotel  gate and found her on the pavement. He stopped the car in front of Sana, got down from the car and walked to her. Her eyes were swollen, her nose red and her body and hands were shivering. He looked at her and then opened the door of the passenger seat. She didn't move.
Sid: Get in the car.
Sana: Nahi muje...
Sid: I said get in the damn car.
    Sana saw Sid's face. He was clenching his teeth in anger. She moved forward and climbed in the car. He got in and they drove towards his home. She had no energy to fight or ask him anything. Her head was throbbing. She rested head her on the back of the seat and closed her eyes. Sid looked at her and his heart ached for her. He parked the car in the parking lot, got down and opened the car door for her. She got down and they both walked to the lift in silence. He opened the door with his keys and found Maa standing in the passage.
Maa: Kaisi rahi..... Sana?? Kya hua tuje?? Siddharth kya hua isko??
   Sid walked to the hall without saying anything. Maa went close to Sana and held her hand. She took Sana in her arms and fresh tears started flowing from Sana's  eyes. Maa soothed her back, calmed her down and took her to the hall.  She made Sana sit on the sofa and rushed to bring water. Sid was standing facing the big french door which led to the balcony. He had his back to Sana. Maa came with water, gave it to Sana and wiped the tears from her eyes
Maa: Siddharth mai kuch puch rahi hu tujse. Kya hua hai??
Sid turned around and looked  directly at Maa. Ignoring Sana completely
Sid: Fuck Maa...
Maa: Siddharth mind your language.
Sid: Maa aap isse pucho na ke kya hua hai. In fact isse yeh pucho ke yeh hai kon??
Maa: Kya matlab?? Sana baccha kya baat hai??
Sid: Yeh kya bolegi.
Maa: Siddharth chup kar jaa. Use baat to karne de. Aur tu yeh chillana band kar. Vo dar rahi hai.
Sid: Usko darna bhi chahiye Maa. Mai is waqt bahot upset hu.
Maa: Siddharth tu thoda aaraam se baat karega please. Pani pi.
He picked the glass of water from which Sana has drank, had a few sip and banged the glass on the side table. He ran his hand through his hair,  turned and stood with his back towards them. Sana sat with her head bend her hands on her lap. Tears were flowing from her eyes. Sana knew she has to disclose  everything now. And it was the best. She wiped her tears and looked first at Sid's stiffed back and then at Maa
Sana: Maa mera naam Shehnaaz kaur Gill hai. Singing aur acting ka bada shouk tha muje. College me bahot drama me part leti and singing bhi kar leti. College khatam hote he muje bahot offers aane lage. Papa ko pasand nhi tha, to ghar chod diya. Mohali shift ho gayi. Bahot sare music videos kiye. Shows kiye. Canada me mera show bahot hit hua. Punjab me bhi bahot accha naam ho raha tha.  Punjab ke top singer aur actress ko mera success se pata nhi kya problem hue. Usne mere gaane ke, mummy papa, mere character ke baare me bahot gandi gandi baate failai. Fir pata nhi kaise mere bhi muh se uske papa ke baare me kuch galat nikal gaya. Jo nhi hona chahiye tha. Par us baat ko lekar usne muje itna badnaam kar diya ke mera jeena mushkil hone laga. Mobile kholo to negativity, gaaliya, gandi baate. Sab mere bardasht ke bahar ho gaya. Depression ke leye medicines lene lagi. Kaam milna band ho gaya. Ghar aayi to papa ke taane. Thak gayi aur firse ghar chod diya. Yaha chali aayi. Soocha agar kuch kaam mile to. Par nhi bana kuch. Fir tab se is production house me crew member ki job kar rahi hu. Yeh hai meri kahani Maa 
    Sana took her face in her hand and started crying. Maa took Sana in her arms and tried to calm her down. Sid walked out of the room without saying a word. He went to his room and sat on the bed holding his head in his hand. Tears started streaming through his eyes. She has gone through so much. How did she survive this. It takes a lot of courage to face so much negativity and then come to this city and make a life without anyone's support. He admire her. She never like taking favours and is self dependent. He was so proud of her. Recalling her face when that bastard was forcing himself on her made his blood boil. He would have bashed him, if he had not known this secret of Sana. He was sure Arun will solve that issue calmly and intelligently. They was a knock on his door and Maa entered. He wiped his eyes with the sleeve of his shirt.
Maa: Maine usse guestroom me sula diya hai. Usse naraaz mat ho beta.
Sid: Nahi Maa mai naraaz nhi hu. Par usne muje bataya kyu nhi??
Maa: Vo apni pichli zindagi se bhaag kar yaha aayi hai Siddharth. Tu samaj uski majburi.
Sid: Jee Maa.
Maa: Jaa tu bhi change karke soo jaa. Bahot raat ho gayi hai. Good night.
Sid: Good night Maa.
    Sid went to the bathroom and stood under the shower to cool himself off. He wanted to cry, shake her, shout at her, kiss her, make love to her, All his raw emotions making him shiver. He came out of the bathroom changed into his t-shirt and shorts. He paced the floor not knowing what to do. She must be still crying now. He had not looked at her when she had finished telling about her past. He had walked away, because he needed time to gather himself together. These emotions were all new to him. He had never felt any thing like this for any girl before. She meant a lot to him. He could happily give his life for her if needed. Then what are you doing here, you fool. You should go to her. Take her in your arms, kiss all her sadness and worries away. He told himself. He rushed towards the guest room and stopped in front of the door. It was not locked. He opened the door and entered the room. Sana was curled up in the bed with her back to the door. She stiffened as if sensing him, but didn't look back. He came to the bed and lay next to her, pulling her closer to his chest. She started crying loudly.
Sid: Shhh. Chup ho ja baby. Chup.
Sana: Siddharth...
Sid: Tu kyu ro rahi hai itna?? Mai hu na tere sath??
Sana: Mai tuje sab batana chahti the par himmat nhi hue.
Sid: Baby hum us baare me baad me baat karenge. Thek hai??
Sana: Hmmm. Par tu mujse gussa to nhi hai na??
Sid: Bola na meri jaan baad me baat karenge. Accha bata us bastard ne tuje koi chot to nhi pahuchayi na??
Sana: Nahi. Par mai bahot dar gayi the Siddharth. Vo muje zabardasti apne room me le jaa raha tha. Agar tu na aata to??
    This scared Sid too.
Sid: I want to kill that bastard.
    Sid pulled her even closer and hugged her tightly from behind.
Sana: Baby...I'm sorry.
Sid: Bola na baby baad me baat karenge. Ab tu so jaa.
Sana: Nahi tu pehle kiss kar muje.
    She turned to face him. Her eyes were swollen, nose all red, but still the most beautiful girl in the world. Sid crushed his lips to hers, as if punishing her for not believing in him. His kissed got passionate and she brought her hand and started stroking his back. A desperate moan from Sana brought Sid back to reality. He removed his mouth from hers and found tears were streaming from her eyes.
Sid: Kya hua baby?? Tuje dard hua kya?? Tu ro kyu rahi hai.
    Sana shook her head.
Sid: Aise sir mat hila. Tuje meri kasam bata kya hua??
Sana: Muje laga maine tuje hamesha ke leye kho diya tha.
    She pulled him to her and hugged him tightly.
Sid: Baby aise ro mat maine bola na mai tuje kabhi nhi chodunga. Chal ab so jaa. Teri halat dekh. Kitna royi hai tu. Paani aata kaha se hai itna??
    Sana giggled and Sid was happy. He pulled her in his arms and lay on his back. Looking up at the ceiling. He had dreamed so many times of  sleeping with her in his arms, and now here she is. In his arms.
    Sana woke up with a start screaming Sid's name. Sid came to the bedroom in few seconds and rushed too her. She was panting. He gathered her in his arms. Sana hugged him tightly.
Sid: Kya hua baby?? Tu chillayi kyu??
Sana: Bura sapna dekha. Ki tu mujese gussa ho ke chala gaya kahi dur.
Sid: Mai yahi hu meri jaan. Kahi nhi gaya.
    He removed her from his arms kissed her forehead, straighten her hair, looked into her eyes and gave her a loving smile.
Sid: Chal fresh ho jaa. Maa ne bade maze ka breakfast banvaya hai tere leye.
Sana: Fir muje ghar chod dega??
Sid: Ghar kyu jaana hai?? Aaj to tera off hai na aur fir kal Sunday hai.
Sana: Sid mai kal se yahi kapdo me hu.
Sid: Ha to jaakar le aayenge kapde.
    Sana nodded and Sid left so that she could freshen up. Sid was sitting on the dinning chair talking to Arun.
Arun: Sab under control  hai boss. Aap itna tension kyu le rahe ho. Vo banda yaha Mumbai kuch kaam se aaya tha. Uska address le liya hai maine aur acche se samja bhi diya hai. Don't worry.
Sid: Mera bas chalta to mai usse jaan se maar daalta. Sana ke sath usne bahot badtameezi ke hai.
Arun: He was drunk. Aap relax karo ab acche se samja diya hai maine.
Sid: Ok bye bro
Arun : Bye sir.
    Sid disconnected the call and saw Sana entering the dinning room looking all fresh and yummy. She came near him and he pulled her on his lap. Sana giggled and he kissed her on her neck. As she was lowering her head to kiss him, they heard Maa call out from the kitchen.
Maa: Siddharth Sana aayi nhi kya abhi tak??
    Sana jumped out from his lap, pressing  her hand to her mouth to stop her giggle. Sid swore under his breath and she gave him a stare.
Sid: Ha Maa yeh dekho abhi aayi. Abhi just aayi.
    Maa came out of the kitchen and walked towards Sana. She took Sana in her arms and kissed her forehead.
Maa: Kaisi hai baccha??
Sid: Yeh aisa pyaar aapko mujpe kabhi nhi aata na.
Maa: Chup kar. Kya tuje pyaar nhi karti mai??
Sid: Hamesha bas daat ti to rehti ho. Pyar ka to pata nhi.
Maa: Chod usse. Tu thek se soyi na??
Sid: Ha ha bahot acche se soyi. Aap jaao abhi breakfast lao. Bhuk lagi hai. Serial ke melodrama dekh kar thak gaya hu. Ab ghar pe bhi chalu ho gaya hai.
    Maa gave him a stare and walked back to the kitchen. Sana had a smile on her face and Sid was happy to see her eyes shining with happiness.