Unspoken Desire (Completed)

Controlling Emotions

Sana was woken up by Sid. She opened her eyes and smiled at him.
Sid: Chal khaana khaate hai. Maa bula rahi hai.
They both went to the dinning hall. All Sid's family with their happy faces welcomed her. They were so loving towards her. The food was too delicious.
Sana: Maa vo muje aap ke friend jo banati hai vo laddu chahiye.
Maa: Ha beta muje pata tha. Maine usko aaj subah he bola tha. Usne ready karke rakha hai.
Sana: Thank you Maa.
Maa: Siddharth tu lunch ke baad uske vaha se le aa. Uska servant tuje neeche laake dega.
Sid: Are mai kyu jaau yaar??
Maa: Kyuki usse khaane hai.
Sid: To suresh ko bhej do.
Maa: Beta Suresh ko aaj bahot kaam hai.
Sid: Tu in sab me se kisiko bhej do.
Di: Bhai tere biwi ko khaane hai. Thodi bahot mehnat to kar??Aur hame kaam hai.
Sid: Yeh accha hai. Matlab muje kuch kaam nhi hai.
Di: Ha. Sahi hai. Kya kaam hai tuje??
Sana: Rehne de di. Itna tantrum se to accha hai ke mai na khaau.
Sid: Ha thek hai. Thek hai. Faltu me emotional blackmail karte hai log.
Sid looked at Sana and she looked challenging at Sid. They all laughed. Maa told Sana to come to her room. She made her sit on the bed. Sid had left. Maa gave her some jewellery boxes. Some were big, some were small.
Sana: Yeh kya hai Maa.
Maa: Yeh sab maine apne bahu ke leye banaye the. Yeh ab tere hai.
Sana: Maa yeh...
Maa: Kuch Siddharth ke papa ke time ke hai aur kuch Siddharth ke paise ke hai. Yeh apne paas rakh
Sana: Nahi yeh sab aap apne paas rakhoge.
Maa: Lekin beta...
Sana: Suniye Maa. Muje jab zarurat hogi mai aapse lekar pehen lungi. Par yeh mai apne paas nhi rakhungi. Please yeh muje mat de aap.
Maa: Accha chal thek hai. Par yeh le yeh lehenga pehen puja ke leye. Aur isme se koi jewellery pehen le.
Sana: Ab yeh decide karne muje mat bolo. Aap decide karke dedo. Mai pehen lungi.
Maa was so much in love with this girl. She was never greedy about anything nor the manipulative types. Her loving nature was heart warming. Sana took the clothes and jewellery and came to her room. Her room. Was it her room?? Does it belong to her and Sid. Or does it belong only to Sid and she is the temporary resident here. She didn't want to think about any of this. She was loved and pampered by Sid's family and she was enjoying it. Sid entered the room and kept the box of laddus in front of her on the bed.
Sid: Lo madam khaao laddu.
She was sitting on the bed resting her back against the pillow. She opened the box and took a bite of the laddu. Closing the eyes she was enjoying the soft texture, sweet taste and delicious aroma. Sid was looking at her with hunger in his eyes. She opened her eyes and he looked away. He went to his side of the bed and lay there.
Sid: Koi itne dur jaakar laaya hai, banda offer to karta hai. Yaha to khud ka peth bharega to offer karenge na log.
Sana: Log?? Kon log?? Mere baare me bol raha hai??
Sid: Nahi padosi ke baare me bol raha hu.
Sana: Ha to fir thek hai. Par agar mere baare me bol raha hai, to mai mere leye aur tere bacche ke leye khaa rahi hu. To tu shikaayat nahi kar sakta.
Sid: Accha to ab yeh mera baccha?? Haa??
Sana:To tu he to das baar yehi bolta rehta hai ke mera baccha hai, mera baccha hai.
Sid: Ha vo to sahi hai. Vaise on serious note. Thank you.
Sana: Thank you?? Kis leye??
Sid: Mere bacche ke leye itni takleef uthane ke leye.
Sana: Siddharth...
Sid: Aur fir uske leye to aise hasaro laadu kurbaan. Tu kha. Tuje aur chahiye to bol mai aur bolta hu aunty ko banvane.
They both laughed. Life was so beautiful, like this. He felt he can give his everything to see her laugh and happy as she is now.
The puja has started and Sid and Sana are both looking fabulous. Only a few near and dear ones were present. Jay and Mahi arrived few minutes before the puja started. It seems jay was going to make an announcement after the puja. Sana connected with mahi as soon as they met. Mahi also helped Sana in getting ready.
Mahi: Sid bahot accha hai. Tu koi baat ke tension mat lena.
Sana: Mai janti hu di.
Mahi: Aur agar koi zarurat hai to mai hu. Muje kabhi bhi call kar sakti hai tu. Sid mera aur jay ka bahot accha friend hai aur ab tum bhi usme shaamil ho.
Sana: Di yeh announcement se muje tension ho rahi hai. Meri controversy ke baare me to pata hai aapko.
Mahi: Ek idea du tuje mai Sana. Do din ke leye social media khol he mat. Sab apne aab settle ho jaayega.
They both laughed. Di came to call them and they went out to perform the rituals. Now Sana sitting next to Sid. She felt so completely peaceful. She want to lead a content and peaceful life. They have been sitting for quite a long time. And that pain in her back was again making her uncomfortable. She shifted in her seat and Sid realised it. Sid looked at Maa and Maa understood what he was trying to indicate. But what can Maa do?? Sid brought his hand to her back and started pressing it softly with his palm. He knew it won't erase the pain, but will atleast make it less bearable to sit till the puja lasts.
Sana felt his hand on her back and turned to look at him. He was not looking at her. She was so overwhelmed by this gesture that a tear dropped out of her eye. He looked at her as if sensing it. Their eyes locked and he brushed the tear from her cheek. Her heart fluttered. She loved him so much. Yes she does and she always will.
After the puja was over Sid held Sana's hand and took her to the room.
Sid: Paach minute let ke fir aa jaana. He went to the doorway, came back to her, took her face in his hand, kissed her forehead and left. As she lay on the bed, she got so emotional that tears started flowing from her eyes. The baby kicked hard.
Sana: Baby mai tere papa se bahot pyaar karti hu. Ab kya karu mai??
The baby kicked again. She soothed her stomach as if caressing it, gathered herself together and went outside. She could see everyone sitting and chatting in groups. She went and sat next to Maa. Sid was in deep conversation with Jay.
Jay had made the Announcement on his instagram page sharing the pic of a newly wedded couple. The caption read "Siddharth Shulka marries Shehnaaz kaur Gill" Sid was scared of the uproar it will create on the social media.
Sid: Hangama hone wala hai ab social media par.
Jay: Ha bhai vo to hoga he na?? Aise achanak tu dhamake daalega to kya hoga. Muje tune call karke bataya to muje almost heart attack aate aate reh gaya. Yeh tere secret affair ko tune bahot acche se chupaya. Par yeh Madam Rashmi ne kaise pata laga leya.
Sid: Pata nhi yaar. Muje mere leye kuch nhi lag raha. Par kuch zyaada negative ho gaya na to vo pareshaan ho jaayegi. Tu kuch kar sakta hai kya.
Jay: Ha mai karta hai kuch. Tu tension mat le. Par ek baat bolu bhai?? Rashmi ka matter jaldi se jaldi clear kar le. Isse tum dono ke life me faltu ka stress ho raha hai.
Sid: Mai bhi yahi chahta hu yaar, par vo muje bolne he nhi deti. Try ke maine. Fir soochta hu Koch zyaada tension le liya to?? Yeh stage pe usse mai pareshaan nhi karna chahta.
Jay: Hmmm. Thek hai. Dekh le. Par dyaan rakh. Aur social media ka to tu tension mat le. Mai karta hu kuch.
They all had a very good time. Dinner was too good. All left after dinner. Sid's sisters to left to their respective homes. Sana was on a call with her mom.
Sana: Maa pair ke swelling to hai he par, feet mere ekdum dry ho gaye hai. Muje ekdum tight aur uneasy feel ho raha hai.
Mom: Beta ghar me thoda sarso ka teel hoga to laga le. Tu gynac ke paas kab jaa rahi hai.
Sana: Maa shayad appointment lene wali hai.
Mom: Accha thek hai. Tu aaraam kar. Kal baat karti hu.
Sana: Ok Maa.
She went to the kitchen and brought oil from there. Now the task was to apply it to her feet. She was not able to bend and reach her feet comfortably. It was giving a lot of pain in her back. As she was trying to, Sid entered the room.
Sid: Yeh kya kar rahi hai??
Sana: Siddharth mere pair bahot dry ho gayi hai, to Mummy ne kaha oil laga lo.
Sid went and sat on the bed in front of her.
Sid: La mai laga deta hu.
Sana: Nahi Siddharth thek hai. Mai laga rahi hu.
Sid: Sana maine kaha na mai laga deta hu??
He took her leg in his hand, kept it on his thigh and statred massaging her feet in slow motion. She twisted and turned her feet on his thighs unknowingly . He was not looking at her. He won't, because that sensation of her leg on his thigh was driving him crazy with want. He took the oil again and started massaging the other leg gently. How was he going to control himself. This was way more difficult than he had thought.
Sana was looking at his face. The motion of his fingers on her feet was sending currents through her body. She so wanted him to kiss her. To kiss her passionately. As they used to before. There was a time when, they shared so much of passion. The memory made her shiver and Sid looked at her. They both saw what other was feeling in each others eyes.
Sana: Siddharth muje ek kiss karega please.
Sid looked at her for what felt like ages, then moved forward and smashed his lips to hers. He felt he will explode with want. He kissed her hard, biting on her lips. He then opened her mouth with his and inserted his tongue, making her moan. His ears had craved for this moan. He was hard now. He has got out of control. He lay her on the bed and adjusted himself next to her not leaving her mouth. He nibbled her lips. They were swollen now. He then left her lip. She gave a soft moan objecting to it. She felt him move downward to her neck and bit her there, as his hands went to her now full breast. She screamed his name with all the desire she felt for him. His hand moved to her stomach and the baby kicked hard. Sid stopped abruptly. He looked at her and got out of the bed immediately. Sana was stunned by Sid's sudden withdrawal. He looked at her for a few seconds and left the room. He has just left her wet and wanting. She sat up in bed. What has just happend. Why did he leave so suddenly. Was it because she was not attractive?? Because he had left as soon as he had touched her stomach. Why did he do that?? Or was it something else. There was one more reason he must have withdrew himself from her. Rashmi. Because he is committed to her and he doesn't want to be disloyal to her. Fresh tears started falling from her eyes. She felt so dejected. She was pushed away, as if he realised she was some kind of dirt. She felt insulted. She felt ashamed.