Dearly Beloved

->One

I'm not particular but dearly beloved you're my everything.

You've been my everything for the longest time.

You show me how much I can love a person without loving myself.

My love you're everything I've ever wanted.

My everything.

And I'm not ashamed.

It's just that you don't know it.

If you knew you were my everything you'd deny me.

You don't even know who I am.

You walk past me in the halls and you simply walk.

You don't turn.

You don't nod.

You don't look.

You just, walk.

I've learned from you.

I've learned patience, honesty.
I've learned pain and amnesty
I've learned freedom and love.

I haven't yet understood why you'd reject me.

Would you hate me if you knew?

Will I ever be brave?

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I wanted to talk to you.

I took a deep breath.

I took a step forward.

I saw you stare at her.

She's gorgeous and I completely understood then.

You would never want me.

I took a step back.
Tears threatened to escape from my eyes.
I am so stupid.

But dearly beloved, is it so hard to see me? To acknowledge me at least?

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In math class I heard a swear word behind me.

I thought it was Sam.

So I turned and scowled at him.

He was confused. His stare was the stare of a lost puppy who didn't know what was going on.

I realized my mistake.

Then I saw you.

And Dearly Beloved I swear my heart skipped a beat and I felt like nothing in comparison to you.

You said um... Err...

Maybe you didn't know my name so I said Ezra.

Do you have a pencil Ezra?

You struggled with the "z" in the pronunciation.

How could anyone say 'no' to your sky blue eyes, perfect toned face and astounding voice?

I handed you the pencil and you smiled.

You flashed me one of those beautiful smiles where you teeth radiate white. Spotless. Suddenly you became more than my everything.

Thank you, Ezra.

I smiled, and turned.

My day was made with a flash of your teeth and only a few words from your lips. Although they had no meaning to you in particular, those words would stay with me for as long as possible.

And I silently thanked you for that.

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