Dearly Beloved

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You walked away.

Did you realize I wouldn't answer?

A whimper escaped my mouth.

A struggle to tell you everything. But you didn't bother turning around.

You continued.
Without looking back.

I deserved it, didn't I?

This whole time I have been waiting for a sign of appreciation from you, and finally when it happened I couldn't even talk to you.

When you turned I saw years of love leaving with you.
I saw pain.
I saw a dream that wouldnt come true.
I saw long days of sadness following you.
I saw myself dying little by little, with every step you took.
You took a piece of me with every inch you walked away.

I knew this would happen.
I knew you'd back away.
I knew you wouldn't understand.
I knew you'd leave eventually.
I knew I'd pay a bigger price.
My God, knew how honest I had been.
He knew I wouldn't resist.

I collapsed.
My knees weak.
My hands, loose.
My eyes, lost.
My heart, stopped.
My instincts told me to wake up.
My mind told me to leave.
My heart told me to run after you.
My mind, this time told me to give up.
My heart, told me to keep fighting.

I hated myself in that moment.
At the fact I was such a coward.

How could I just let you go?

I regretted everything.
I couldn't do anything.
I hadn't even looked at you.
I couldn't even face you.
I couldn't even breath with you next to me.

You took away my breath.
You took my heart and soul.
And with a few steps you took everything away with you.

I'm still in shock.
Did it only take you minutes to realize I wasn't worth your time.
Why did you run?

And you never said you'd leave
But you never said you'd stay
But whatever you choose.
I beg you to choose well.

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