No judgement

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Today is July 15th, 2018. Today is the last day of tour. I am super sad about it, I am going to miss it so much. Harry doesn't want me to photograph tonight, he wants me to perform my song. I am super nervous, but his fans love my song. I have got so much love from his supporters on my song. It makes me so happy. My song has touched so many people, it makes my heart want to explode.

"Are you ready to have your first performance?" Harry asked me as I walked out of my dressing room. I haven't got dressed for my performance yet, but I am so excited to wear the outfit I bought the other day. It's so beautiful.

"I'm nervous, but so excited." I said. Smiling, my excitement made him smile as well. He doesn't like to take credit for my success, he isn't all of it. He is a major part of why I am successful. He is the main reason why people even know who I am.

"You will do so great." He said to me. "Well I need to get on the stage in 5, so I am going to go. I will see you soon!" He said, he gave me a hug before he walked away. He walked away giving me one last smile before he turned the corner. I walked back to my dressing room, so that I could get ready for my performance. When I opened the door, I saw two of my most favorite people. I haven't seen them in a few days, they said that they had something that they need to do.

"Oh Hey, I missed you guys so much! I am so glad that you are here, I can't wait for you too see me perform." I said very excitedly. I missed them so much, it's only been like 3 days. I just missed them.

"I can't wait to see you perform. I know damn well you are going to do so well." Eleanor said. She is always my biggest supporter. "We went to get all the boys from One Direction to surprise Harry. They are up in the box hiding from his view. We are going to surprise him. So after you perform, we will bring them down. Bring them back stage to surprise him. He doesn't know we are here either." I love the idea. He is going to love this. I have heard so much great things about them, if they are anything like Harry and Louis we will get along.

They went to the box. I grabbed my outfit off of the rack. It's the most beautiful thing that I have ever seen, and will probably be the most beautiful outfit I will ever wear. It's kind of like the outfit that I wore on James Corden's show. Instead it's yellow, and sequenced. My most favorite color. I mean I love purple, but yellow is great. I looked in the mirror, taking a mirror selfie. I posted it on my Instagram with the caption...I am performing for my first time ever tonight, wish me luck. Love ya xoxo B...I put my phone away and walked out to the management to got all the mic stuff on. I don't know the word for it, I really don't understand all of that stuff yet.

They put the earpiece in my ear, and handed me the microphone. I am getting so nervous. I don't know how this is going to go. I hope it goes well. I stood by the stage waiting for Harry to call me on stage. I watched him sing, he is so talented.

"Okay everyone, so some of you may have found out that we have a special guest. She just released her first song. She is an amazing singer, she is such an inspiration to me and everyone around her. Welcome my most favorite person on this planet, my girlfriend. BAYLEE WINTERS EVERYONE!!!" I heard a bunch of screaming. Chanting. They were chanting my name. I smiled. I walked up the stairs and Harry met me at the top. He grabbed my hand walking me to the middle of the stage. I turned on my mic.

"Hey everyone." I said through the microphone. I don't know what else to say. Harry hugs me and then walks over to the piano. I grabbed the guitar. We started to play the first chord and I followed his lead. I looked up to the box that I normally watch from to see Eleanor looking straight at me. I smiled and then started singing. The crowd started singing my song with me. I stopped for a second letting them sing. I couldn't hold the tears back. This feeling I have is unreal. I started singing again.

Once I was done singing, I said my goodbye's and Harry closed it out. Now it is time for Harry's surprise. This is what I am most excited for. "You did so good Baylee, I am so proud of you." Harry said. I went to say thank you but he saw the boys. He looks so happy. He walked up to them hugging each of them. Eleanor walked up to me.

"That was beautiful, you did so good." She said to me. I smiled at her.

"It was like a high. Something I never thought I would feel. It made me feel great. I can't wait to do it again." I said to her. Everything that I felt tonight, I want to feel again. I looked over to the group of boys and the one with blond hair was looking at me. I smiled at him. He smiled back.

"I bet. Let's introduce you to them. This is Baylee, Baylee this is. Zayn, Liam, and Niall." She said. The boy that was looking at me earlier, Niall I like that name. I waved at them.

"Hey." I said. Waving and smiling at them.

"You were so great tonight. Your voice is so amazing." Niall said. I smiled at him.

"Thank you Niall." He smiled at me. This is a little bit awkward.

We all went to Harry's house after we got into our normal clothes. I grabbed some food on the way there. I rode with Niall and Zayne. They are both really cool dudes. They made me laugh at least 100 times. Niall keeps looking over at me. I didn't want to make eye contact so I just looked down at my phone. Seeing a text from an unknown number.

New message!
Wow that song, attention seeker. That's all I have to say. You just want attention, so you tell the world that you were sexually assaulted to make up an excuse, so you don't have to own up to the fact that you killed your mother. YOU KILLED YOUR MOTHER! No matter how long you try to run from it, it will eventually catch up to you. I also don't appreciate you talking bad about me in an interview. I am your father, I deserve respect from you. Damn I don't even want to look at you.

I looked away from Niall, letting tears fall from my eyes. I can't believe he does this every time I get happy. Every single time. I can't take this much longer. I couldn't stop crying. They didn't notice though, I have always been really good at hiding it.

Once we pulled into the driveway. I got out of the car really fast, running inside and locking myself in the bathroom. I don't want anyone to see me like this. I can't deal with him anymore. I pulled my purse up to me. I pulled out my anxiety pills taking them. Seconds later hearing a knock at the door.