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Today is August 15th, 2019. It is Niall and I's one year anniversary. I am so thankful for the time that I have gotten to spend with him. He has given me the love that I have been missing in my heart for so long. He has been the best possible human, he goes out of his way to make me feel special. Today is one of those days, a day that I get to show my appretiation for him. I have been writing a letter to him for the past few weeks. I wanted to make it perfect.

"Baby, I'm here." I heard Niall say in the hallway. I still live with Harry. I want to move out soon. That would look really suspious though since we are suppose to be together. I had to post a one year post on my instagram for Harry and I. His management insisted I do so.

"Hey." I got up meeting him at the door. I kissed him, he put his arms around my waist. Pulling me closer.

"Hey." He said softly. I walked back to my bed pulling out everything I got him. We were going to go somewhere, but everywhere that means something really special to us is public. I'm giving him his stuff here, and then we are going to go to his house. I kept the note in my hand, I am going to read that to him myself.

He opened the package, revealing some music that I have put together. I don't sing it, but it's music that is very speical to us. He will know why I put them on there and why they are in the order they are in. He will most definitely get it. He then pulled out some of my favorite picture's of the two of us, I put them in a photobook. They all have captions. My point of view. The way I felt when the pictures themselves were taken. The last thing that he pulled out was a matching ring set. I know guys normally do this stuff. No i'm not proposing.

"These are for a promise. I promise to love you until my last breath. I promise to protect you to my full power. I promise to be there for you through the good and the bad. That brings me to this." I pulled out the note that I wrote him.

"Dear Niall James Horan,
Niall, you mean the world to me. I don't even have words to explain how much you mean to me. You bring so much light into my world, the darkness from my past doesn't bother me because I have you. As long as I have you, I know that I am safe. I don't have to worry about family anymore. I built my own with you. I can't wait to add more. At the end of the day I don't want to know what it's like to be without you. I don't want to live in a world where you aren't there when I need you, I want to be the one you call in the middle of the night. I don't ever want to think of someone else doing that for you. You give me such a bright future. I know I am going to have a great life because of you. I just want to thank you now, and before you say I don't need to thank you. I do, I really do. You have been there for me since I met you. The day I met you, you listened to me like we have known each other for so long. It honestly felt like we have known each other my whole life. I've heard that's what people feel with their soulmates. I feel like we are so much more than just soulmates. We are best friends. We are there for each other on both levels. That is the most important thing. That we are there for each other. I was never sure about anything in my life until I met you, I know what I want now. I want to grow old with you. Watch our kids grow up together. Produce music together. Go on tours. Be by each other's side, until we physically can't anymore. That is what I am sure of. I am so sure about us. I want us to be forever baby. I know that we are meant to be, I love you Niall. More than I have ever loved anyone. I love you, I love you, I love you. You are what I am most sure about. These rings are more than just a promise, they are a symbol of our love in a way. My heart is yours. My future is yours. My ring finger is yours. Whenever you are ready for that I am ready. I will keep this ring there to symbolize that I am happy with someone that I love. Someone that I want to spend the rest of my life with. That's what this ring is."

The smile that is on his face is absoluletly gorgous. I can't ever get tired of that beautiful smile. I smiled back at him, he wrapped his arms around my waste pulling me into a hug.

"I love you Baylee. Forever." He said. Placing a small kiss on my lips.

"I love you too Niall." I said. He grabbed the rings, putting mine on my finger. I grabbed his and put the ring on his finger. "I now pronounce you together and happy." I said causing both of us to laugh. It's true though. I completely meant that. I know he knows that too.

"Okay it's time to go to my house." He said getting up, pulling me up with him. I grabbed my purse. I don't even care to change, he doesn't care how I look. He says I always look good. I'm starting to believe that, I am starting to gain confidence and It feels great. I got into his car, turning on the radio. One of the songs I put on our playlist. I smiled. He knows the song but he doesn't know it's on the playlist yet. This felt like a sign to me.

He pulled into his driveway, parking the car. He grabbed my purse, even though I could have carried it for a few steps. I smiled at him, grabbing his hand when he reached the passanger side of the car. He put my hand up to his face, kissing my hand. I did the same, kissing his hand. He put my purse down, and then we went into the living room. He grabbed a box from under the couch. Handing it to me. I looked up at him, smiling. The moment I wish I could be trapped in forever.

I opened the box, to see a key. A single key. I looked up at him confused. He grabbed his key chain revealing an identiacal key on his.

"I got us an apartment together. You don't have to if you aren't ready. There is a soundproof room for producing music. I think you would love it there. It's already furnished, and I have pictures of you and I up in the living room..." He is scared I will say no, but I don't know why I wouldn't. I am ready for this.

"I would love too. Can we go now?" I said getting really excited. I jumped off the couch, grabbing my purse again. He laughed and followed me out the door. I got into the car, he drove a total of a block away from Harry's house. It's more than just an apartment. It's a house. I got out of the car, looking at the house in awe. It's beautiful. I grabbed my key, unlocking the door. The living room alone is so absolutley beautiful. It has a beautiful mixture of Niall and I's favorite colors. Green and Yellow. Mine is pastel yellow though. So it's perfect. I walked around in awe of everything, everything is just so perfect.