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"Harry." I called into a silent house. "HARRY." I yelled. I heard movement upstairs. I walked up the stairs, meting Harry in the hallway. "Hey can I talk to you for a minute. Louis too." Louis walked out of their room, following Harry and I down the stairs.

"So Niall and I are moving in together. He surprised me last night. We had a great night at our new house." I smiled at the memory of last night. They were looking at me weird. "What?" I said.

"What are people going to think when they find out that we are not living together anymore. They are going to start figuring things out." I started to get a little frustrated.

"We will figure it out once we cross that bridge." I said. I'm keeping my cool.

"There isn't just 'We will figure it out'" He said. "What about Louis and I?" Okay I'm really frustrated.

"What about me huh? My entire relationship with Niall I have done everything that you needed me too do. I have given up so much to help you with this. I am not giving up Niall as well. I need this for us to grow. I love you so much Harry, you know that. I have to think of myself sometimes though. I am so sorry that I am letting you down, I always let someone down. I am tired of letting everyone down." I said tears in my eyes. I always put everyone before me. I'm tired of doing that.

"I'm sorry Baylee, but I can't loose Louis." Harry said. I almost apologized but that's not fair.

"Well Harry, I can't loose Niall either. So don't put me in this position to have to chose. I will still be your girlfriend online, but I am not putting my life on hold for you forever. I am so sorry that you believe I should but I need to be happy too." I said while walking away. I went to my room, calling Niall to come help me. He said he'd be here soon.

"Hey baby. Thank you for coming to help me." I said while looking away from the boxes. He smiled at me getting the clothes in my dresser packed. He could tell something was off.

"What's wrong my love?" He asked me. I turned around looking him directly in the eyes.

"Harry and I got into a fight." I said.

"About what?" He asked me.

"He was more worried about me leaving and the media thinking we were over, than if I was happy. The first thing he thought of was himself. I thought that he would be happy for me. Why can't he just accept the fact that this can't go on forever. I can't always be known as Harry's girlfriend. I'm yours. Why couldn't he be happy for me?" I asked. I'm crying. I love Harry with my whole heart, and I get why he is anxious. It's not fair for me for him to do that to me though. I have done so much for him.

"At the end of the day it's you decision on how you want to be happy. That's not fair for him to put you in that position. I'm sure he didn't mean to hurt your feeling, I know Harry. He just gets nervous and says things that he doesn't mean. I know him so well. He doesn't normally do stuff like this. I'm sorry that he made you feel that way, but I'm positive that he didn't mean it." What he said makes since. I know Harry almost more than I know myself. There must be something on the internet. I pulled out my phone searching our names on the internet.

"Oh that makes since." I said showing Niall the phone. It's an article about Niall and I. We were spotted together, holding hands. I feel so bad, but at the same time I do not. He is scared to loose Louis, that is why I also feel so horrible. If I lost Niall I don't know where I would be. I opened the door to my room. Niall continued to pack my stuff.

"Harry." I said, walking into the living room. "I'm sorry okay. I'm so sorry." I sat down on the couch across from them.

"I should be the one apologizing. You have your own life and that's not my place to question. I get why you go upset. I am just so terrified to loose this." He pointed between him and Louis. "I don't want to loose him. I want you to be happy as well, I am glad that you and Niall moved in together. I can't wait to see your house either. I just want you to be happy Baylee, that's all I have ever wanted for you." Harry said. I know how scared he is to lose Louis, and I don't plan on ending this.

"Harry I am going to leave your house, but I am not going to leave you and Louis hanging. The media will still think I'm yours, but this can't keep going forever. I want to eventually marry Niall, and have a family with him. I will do it for you until those days. I love you Harry, and all I want for the two of you to be happy. At the same time though I need to worry about if I am happy." I said truthfully. They need to hear it.

"We will tell the world soon, we just need a little bit more time. I am glad that you guys are moving in together, I just got stressed and I took it out on you. I feel horrible. I am so sorry." I got up and walked over to him, I hugged him.

"I love you Harry!" I said. I motioned for Louis to join the hug, and he did without hesitation. "I love you as well Louis." He smiled.

"I love you too." Louis said. I excused myself and walked back upstairs to Niall. He was holding the album that I started and never finished for Louis and Harry.

"Awe I forgot about that." I said grabbing it from him. I flipped through the pages. Smiling at all the picture's I took of them. I miss photography. That use to be my most favorite thing again. "They really love each other." I said. I looked up at Niall. Sitting the book down in one of the boxes.

"How did it go?" Niall asked me.

"He apologized. He said that he is just stressed and he didn't mean to get angry with me, cuz it's not my fault.