No judgement

15

I grabbed my notebook from the table. Flipping to the page I've been working on. Niall wants to work on music with me tomorrow. The thought of working with him on music makes me happy. I have only spent that time in the bathroom with him alone, it was a great time even though I was crying. I can't wait to actually spend time with him. I heard a knock at my door, taking me out of my mind.

"Come in." I said while closing my notebook, seeing the door open. Harry coming into the room I have been staying in.

"Hey Baylee. Can I talk to you for a minute?" He asked me sitting across from me on the floor. I smiled at him.

"Of course, what's up?" I asked him.

"I don't know what happened the other night while you were in the bathroom...but the only other time that I have seen you react like that is when your dad texts you. Did he say something?" He asked me. I put my head down.

"Yeah he did." I said.

"Why didn't you tell me, you know I would have listened." He said. I know he is there for me. He has been since I met him. I just felt so safe telling Niall about it. He made me feel good, the way that he listened. Harry and Louis need to worry about each other. I don't want him to have to worry about me all the time. Or anyone for that matter. I don't want to burden anyone. It just doesn't feel like I am being a burden to him, he made me feel really safe. I saw Harry wave his hand in front of my face. "Earth to Baylee."

"Sorry what did you say?" I asked him. I didn't mean to sound rude.

"You know I am here for you right. You can always talk to me if you need someone. You don't have to run to a bathroom and hide." He said.

"I wasn't trying to hide Harry. I just needed a moment. I don't know why but the connection I felt with Niall, it was unexplainable. I felt so safe. I know that you would never judge me. I know that, but the feeling I had while talking to Niall was a different feeling. I don't know how to explain it, I probably make no sense right now." When I looked up Harry was smiling at me. "What?" I asked.

"You like him don't you?" He asked. I started blushing.

"I don't know yet, I think so though. I have only hung out with him that one time." I said. Being completely truthful. I don't understand the feelings that I have yet, but it feels great.

"It sounds like you like him." He said playfully. Playfully pushing on my shoulder. I giggled.

"Harry" i gave him the side eye. "I don't know. I mean I just met him. There is no way that I could already know." I said. I am trying to convince myself more than I am him. I smiled at the thought of Niall. It's like I am in high school all over again, crushing on a guy. Then I remember that if we do get together no one can know. I can't even think like that, there is no way that he likes me too.

"What are you thinking about?" Harry asked me. Pulling me out of my thoughts again. I sighed, looking down to the ground again.

"I always get my hopes up on things, and end up being broken hearted...either because they don't like me back, or they take advantage of me." I said. I took a deep breath, I don't want to start crying again.

"I can tell you one...well two things...Niall would never take advantage of you, for one...Two, I know that he likes you. The way that he looks at you, he feels the same. Even if you don't know what those feelings are yet. There is something between the two of you. I know him, and I know you. The way you looked at each other. That's how Louis and I looked at each other in the beginning." He said. That made me blush even more. Not out of embarrassment but out of happiness. What if? What if Niall and I do start something. What am I going to do with the fake relationship. I can't do that to either of them. I can't end the fake relationship, that would bring everything up. It wouldn't be fair either if I were to get with Niall, because that's obvious. I need to figure a lot of things out.