No judgement

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A/N: There is mature content in this chapter! :)

Our bedroom, the most perfect part of the whole house. It's perfect in every aspect, the bed is beautiful. He knows I'm not into the very extravagant beds. The ones that are literally thousands of dollars. He knows that there is better things to do with money, that's another thing that I love about him. Both of us are like that.

"I love this, and I love you. This house. Our house is perfect. The bedroom is the best. I love it here so much already." I looked at him, the way he is looking at me makes my stomach full of butterflies. I smiled at him. He smiled back at me. I walked up to him wrapping my arms around his waist. Putting my head in his chest. I started crying. He grabbed my face, making me look at him.

"What's wrong luv?" He asked me. I looked at him. I smiled at him.

"Nothing is wrong, I think this is the first time ever that I am crying because I am happy. I am so happy. You have given me so much. Including this, and your love." I said. He placed his lips to mine, making my stomach feel butterflies again. I pulled away. I don't know what made me say it or why I said it. I definitely don't regret it though. "Niall. I think I am ready. I am ready to go to that step with you. I mean we have a house together now, and I am so emotionally involved with you. I also trust you with my full heart. If you want to." I said. He looked at me excited, but also concerned and I get why he is.

"Are you sure Baylee? I don't want you to do something that you would regret." I understand why he is that way. Why he is hesitant. I get it but I know that I am ready. I have moved on from the thing with Jake. He is in prison and I am here with the man I love. The guy that has made me feel so great about my self. I know I am so completely ready for this.

"I am a thousand times sure this is what I want Niall." I said. He smiled at me. This is going to be awkward. This is going to be the first time I am actually having sex on my own terms. So I don't know how this works. I looked over at him and he was putting music on, our playlist. I smiled at him. He walked back over to me, grabbing around my waist dancing with me. He playfully turned me around making us both laugh. I grabbed his shirt, placing my hand under it. His skin is hot. I pulled his shirt over his head, revealing his chest to me. I placed a kiss on his chest. He grabbed my shirt lifting it up as well revealing my bra. He placed a kiss on my chest in return. The butterflies are back.

The amount of love I feel right now as we are dancing around without our shirts on. He kissed me, I grabbed onto the hem of his pants, slowly unbuttoning them. He grabbed my pants in return, pulling the string that holds them up. They dropped to the ground. He looked me up and down as his pants fell to the ground. I smiled. He pulled me closer to him kissing me on the lips, leading me to the bed.

"Are you sure about this, like completely sure." Niall asked me again.

"Niall I am ready, I promise." I said. He smiled at me, kissing me again. I unhooked my bra, revealing my breast to him. I laid back on the bed, letting him climb onto the bed over me. I put my hands on his back while he kissed me. I've always kept condoms with me, just incase someone like Jake came into my life again.

"There is a condom in my purse." I said. He got off the bed and got into my purse. I smiled as he came back to the bed. Grabbing my underwear and pulling them down. Doing the same with his. I don't feel nervous anymore. He put the condom on, doing what I though I was terrified to do. Everything that is happening right now, it feels normal. He kissed me one more time before falling to his side of the bed.

"I love you Niall." I said. I went through that feeling normal. It was a normal moment between two people that love each other. That's what it was. I smiled at him while he looked over at me.

"I love you so so much. I am so thankful for what you have given me tonight. I want you to know that I love you because you are you. Not because of the sex. Yes that was great! I just want you to know that I don't love you because of the sex; I love you because you have given me a year of your life, I love you because you have started to love yourself and it's beautiful. I love you because even when people do you completely wrong you still show up when they need you. I love you because you have brought out the best in me. That is why I love you. You make any bad situation good. I just wanted you to know that I don't love you because of the sex, it's because of you." His words brought me to tears. Good tears. Happy tears. The tears that I want to cry all the time.

"Thank you Niall. You make me such a great person. I love you Niall. I love you till the end of time. I can't wait to spend forever with you." I said. I know what he is about to say. I smiled at him.

"You don't have to thank me." He said. I playfully slapped his arm.

"I do have to thank you. You have helped me become a better person. Everything I am today is a major thanks to you. I have learned to love myself because you made me see myself for the way that I am. The way that I want to be. So just take the thank you." I said causing us both to laugh.

"You're welcome baby." He said back and I smiled at him again. This day is the best day of my life. I moved in with my best friend, we had sex, and we are more involved with each other than we ever have been. He is the best person on this planet. "What are you thinking about?" He asked me. I looked over at him.

"I am thinking about how lucky I am to have you. How good today has been. Great actually. We moved in together. Which was the best thing. Then we had sex, which took the top spot. They actually tied." I said laughing. "I am also thankful that we are at this spot in our relationship."

"I am the luckiest man on this planet." He said simply. It's not a simple statement, but he made it seem so simple. I'm the luckiest women on earth. I really am.

The next morning Niall took me to Harry's house to pack my stuff. I am going be very emotional. Harry and I have lived together basically since we met. He has been my biggest support system, but at the same time I love Niall. He is the love of my life, the reason that I am in such a good mental heath right now. I am going to miss seeing Harry all day, but I will be living a block away from him. I'm not too concerned. They will be happy for me. They always are.