𝐷𝑜𝑡𝑡𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝐸𝑦𝑒𝑠

47

{Tiara}

I play with my straw absentmindedly as Ruby pinches Lance's cheeks.

I still can't get over the fact that Quincy's mom doesn't like me.

She didn't even look at me over the tense breakfast we had this morning.

I...I want to cry.

I can't believe this!

I haven't given her one reason to hate me!

Well before last night.

I was as nice as I could be and I thought she liked me!

"Oh, you are such a cutie pie. Honey look, we get to see this cute little face more! I can't believe it."
Ruby is gushing.

Brandon rolls his eyes as he glances at the uncomfortable looking Lance.

"He's not a baby, Rue. Let him be."
He says, amusement in his voice.

I sip on my coffee absentmindedly, staring out the window.

This is my favorite coffee shop.

Located on the tallest hill in town, I can see almost everything out of the window.

It all looks so small.

A tear drop falls into my coffee.

Damnit.

I quickly wipe my face before anyone can see.

What I kind of hate about all of this is that I never really got along with my mother and I guess I just wanted his mom's appreciation. My mom had no reason to hate me either. At this point, I'm starting to feel like I'm just a bad person. I don't even see how Quincy puts up with me.

...It would have been nice to fill one of many holes in my heart to feel a mother's affection.

I mean, she could have at least looked at me like I was a human.

She...She made me feel like a monster. The way she was looking at me made me feel like I personally did something wrong to her and it hurts.

I know that sometimes I'm not the best person, but I think I deserve at least the normal amount of respect.

His dad is very nice to me, he doesn't think there's anything wrong with me.

And he apologized to me over and over last night.

That was nice.

Quincy is playing with a straw wrapper, seemingly in his own mind.

I...I can't even look at him right now.

He locked himself in the bathroom and wouldn't talk to me after dinner.

I don't blame him for shutting down, I don't think I've ever seen him as upset as he was yesterday.

He couldn't even be in the same room as his mom.

"Are you guys okay? You've barely said a word."

I blink a couple times as Ruby reaches for my hand.

"Yeah, just um..."

The tears just come out.
I try and I try to hold them in but it's a very hard thing to do.

"Oh no. Not the waterworks."
Brandon jumps up immediately.

He absolutely hates seeing people cry.

It just makes me cry harder.

"I'm sorry, I don't mean to ruin lunch."
I breathe, reaching for a napkin.