As I Die Awake (Completed)

Chapter 12: REALITY

Reality

This time KLS got only half a month of my life. Words aren't enough to say how happy I am.

Even though I still experience episodes, I'm still happy cause it only takes weeks, not months and also every time I wake up, Philip is always there to greet me, giving me good vibes to start my day.

Over the past few weeks, I've grown more and more attached to Philip. The vibes and comfort he's always giving me, somehow felt heartwarming.

I pulled my sketch pad out from the drawer of my bedside table and climbed upstairs, heading to the rooftop.

Since I started highschool, I've taken to illustrating the things, living or not, that interests me.

Sometimes I draw some sketches from my dreams and hallucinations even though I only remember tiny fragments from it.

Most of my sketches looks mad.

Wild sketches, crazy spirals, messy twirls, curves and curls forming a horrific image. It depends on my mood though. I can draw cool stuffs but not as good as what you think. Afterall I'm no professional.

The sketches from my dreams and hallucinations are like images that will never come to a whole image. Some are only half of the subject, others are purely shadowy and blurry. Remembering the hallucinations I had during my episodes is really hard for me.

...But today is different.

My memory is crystal clear.

Today, I can remember every single detail of my subject's face. From every strand of its hair, down to those ocean eyes of him 'till his soft looking lips.

A smile formed my lips as I draw my Knight.

"Hey, Aurora." Philip suddenly greeted me from behind.

I quickly put away my sketch pad and hid it under the chair I'm sitting at.

"Hey." I greeted back.

"What are you doing?"

"Uhmmm, nothing."

He sat beside me and didn't talk again for almost an hour.

Minutes had passed but still he didn't say anything and I was getting bored.

Tumayo na ako at nagunat-unat bago naglakad patungo sa pintuan.

Pipihitin ko na sana yung doorknob nang mapansin ko ang isang nakatuping papel sa sahig. Napatigil ako at bahagyang yumuko upang damputin ito.

My eyes squinted the moment I opened the peace of paper.

May sulat na nakalagay sa papel at sa may gilid ng sulat ay nakalagay ang isang litrato ng babae na malapad na nakangiti kasama si Philip na nakaakbay at nakatitig sa babae.

Pero ang talagang nakakuha ng atensiyon ko ay ang isang parte ng sulat.

"Ahmm Philip? Can I ask you a favor?"

Humarap siya sa'kin. "Sure, what is it?"

"Gusto ko lumabas." Sagot ko.

There's a moment of silence between us.

"Saan ka pupunta?"

"I saw in the internet yesterday that there's a newly open coffee shop near the village. Gusto ko iyong puntahan."

Sana naman pumayag siya. "Alam kong mapanganib para sa akin ang lumabas dahil dito sa condition ko pero kasama naman kita eh. Kaya pumayag ka na, pretty please." Alam kong hindi bagay sa akin ang umaktong parang anghel pero I'll try my best. Minsan lang ako nagkakaroon ng pagkakataon na maging masaya sa buhay ko kaya ako na dapat ang gagawa ng paraan para maging masaya.