Stuck On You [Completed]

Chapter 16. I'm Sorry

Chapter 16.

"Hello?" Gulf said after he answered Mew's call.

"Can I sleep there tonight?" Mew asked even if he knows already that Gulf will not going to let him.

Another week had passed and Mew thought that Gulf would go to him just like how he thought. But it is just a big disappointment, his boyfriend seems to not miss him. They're not going to talk unless Mew will call Gulf, Gulf never even asked for Mew's presence and never insisted to go to Mew's place.

Mew became sad the whole week. He planned to be distant in just a few days but it already became a week because he kept hoping that Gulf will miss him.

"No. What's the use of your unit if you're not going to sleep on it?" Gulf said in his usual tone whenever he is refusing Mew's requests.

"When will you let me sleep there then?" Mew asked hiding the gloomy vibe he is in, he tried his best to keep his senses and not breakdown.

He is afraid of the possible things that will happen if he tell Gulf his complains about their unhealthy relationship. What if his boyfriend became mad if he complain about their relationship and break up with him?

"Hey.." Mew said when Gulf didn't say a word and became silent.

Mew started to feel the pain again, it is never easy to always hide how painful it is when your boyfriend isn't giving you what you need that he should be giving you in the first place.

"I want to be with you right now...." Mew said sounding completely sad because of the emptiness Gulf is making him feel.

Gulf felt like a cold ice ran through his body when he heard his boyfriend's sad voice. He knows and he can feel that Mew is having a hard time handling him. He knows that Mew is hurting from how he act around him.

He is always feeling sorry for not having enough courage of expressing how he really feel. He doesn't know how to show his feelings to Mew. He himself  can't understand why he's still shy around his boyfriend even they're together for more than a month now.

Mew may feel that Gulf doesn't like him around him, but the truth is, Gulf really wants to have every moment with Mew. He always want Mew to hug him, he wants his boyfriend to sleep on his bed and cuddle with him all night and he wants to be with Mew all day. He is just too shy with Mew and it is resulting to make Mew feel like he doesn't want to be with him.

He tried many times to talk about it with Mew but he's always backing out. He knows that Mew is being  intentionally distant from him and he also know what is Mew's reason for doing it. Now that it is affecting them seriously, he suddenly felt the urge to fight his shyness and let everything fall in its place.

"I miss you..." Mew said in a low voice, the sadness is not letting him speak normally when Gulf is not answering him.

Gulf ended the call and immediately grabbed his car keys. He quickly went out of the building and drove his car. Mew's tone made his senses in mess and he doesn't want to hear it anymore.

Mew felt weakened and almost dropped on the floor when Gulf ended the call without saying anything like he doesn't care at all. The pain is slowly engulfing him and the feeling of wanting to cry hit him. 

Why are you like this Gulf? Please stop making this hard for me.

He dialed Gulf again with trembling hands as he is suppressing the pain inside his chest that is making him unconsciously hold his breath. He managed to stand still on his feet even his legs are wobbling, the pain he is feeling grew when Gulf is not answering his calls.