I've been waiting

Chapter 20

Sabrina POV

I was awake most of the night after receiving the threat from Jay. It's like when it rains it pours with me and my bad luck. Michael and I spoke in the times I was awake about what to do with the Jay situation. I know Michael wants to find him and punch him, but violence does not solve anything.

In the end we decided to go to the police station and ask them what we could do. The officer we spoke to went above and beyond. I had to make a statement about what had happened yesterday. The bruising on my body from my fall was prominent, so photos were taken. The officer walked us through all the procedures and protocol of what would happen now that charges are laid.

Michael and I have left the police station after making my statement. The officer has promised to let me know the outcome of all of this. Driving back home the car ride is silent. My mind is racing with everything that has happened to me in the past 6 or so months. All I have wanted is to live my life the way I wanted to. I have never asked for anything but to be loved by someone. Yes I have found that someone but it is like I'm cursed. I'm worried now with everything that is going on Michael will want to walk away from me and that scares me to my bones.

"Talk to me Sabs. What is going on inside that brain of yours?" He asks me gently. "Nothing. Just wondering what is going to go wrong next?" I answer truthfully. "Sabrina, nothing is going to go wrong. I am going to do a better job of protecting you and make sure I do it for the rest of our lives. I love you. Don't shut me out. Now tell me what is really going on?"

"I'm scared you are going to walk away from me. Bad things seem to be following me and I am just scared that I'm cursed or something" Tears are welling up in my eyes. "I'm going to say this once and once only. I am not going anywhere. I'm with you for the long haul. Yes, bad things have happened to you but never for one minute ever think that I'm going to pack up and leave. We will face all these challenges together. I'm so in love with you. Just remember that"

When we got home, I sat down on the couch. My mind still running through everything that has happened. I end up changing my position on the couch from sitting to laying and close my eyes. My body is exhausted, and I just want to sleep. I feel something being placed over me and then a kiss on my head. I fall asleep soon after.

The following day I receive a letter from the law courts. My mother's trial is coming up and as I am a witness I must attend. All the nervous feelings I have felt recently come bubbling up to the surface. I sit down with my head in my hands and cry. I just cry to let everything out. The tears don't stop for what feels like a good 2 hours. My life is a mess. Why can't something just go my way. All I want is to marry Michael and start my forever with him and not have anything hanging over my head. When will I catch a break.

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The day of Mum's court case has arrived. To say I am overwhelmed would be an understatement. I am shitting bricks over here and there is nothing anyone can do to calm my nerves. I have been having constant headaches and don't get me started on keeping food in my body. The amount of times Michael has had to hold my hair back from being in the toilet is enough for someone to run for the hills.

Walking into the courthouse, I am met with my lawyer. "Are you ready for this Sabrina?" he asks me, looking at me with concern in his features. "I'll never be ready to relive my life with my mother. I just hope this is the only time I have to bring it all up" I say back quietly, unsure of my own answers. Taking my seat with my lawyer next to me, I watch as my mother in brought into the room in cuffs and chains. She looks like she has aged 10 years in the short amount of time that I haven't seen her. The look on her face towards me is pure hatred. I look down at the table, unable to hold any kind of eye contact with her.

When I am called to the stand, I raise on shaky legs. My lawyer nods at me softly, he lets me know everything will work out in the end. I take my spot on the stand. "Do you swear to tell the truth, the whole truth and nothing but the truth, so you help God" The bailiff asks. "I do" I reply. "You may be seated"

Sitting down the barrage of questions start from both my lawyer and hers. Her lawyer tries to discredit my story, telling the jurors that everything that comes from my mouth is lies. He tells the jurors that it is I who has a drug problem. I have been stealing from her since the day my father left and have been prostituting myself out to the world since I was 12.

My lawyer is able to play the tapes from thegrocery store on the day she barged in and was abusing me in front of everyonethat I worked with and also the general public. The jurors were able to see howpsychotic my mother is. Discrediting everything her lawyer had said about herand myself.