I've been waiting

Chapter 30

Sabrina POV

Fuck a duck. Like seriously what in the actual fuck? Looking at the screen I can feel my anxiety levels rise. I'm pregnant. I am fucking pregnant. Like how the fuck does that happen. For people who always use protection. I am pregnant. I get up off the couch and start pacing the floor. What do I do. There is a baby in my belly and I'm getting married in under 3 weeks.

"Wow Sabrina. Ok babe you need to sit down before you fall down" Jayla reaches for my arm. I'm sweating. My heart is beating uncontrollably. My legs feel like jelly. I have no control over my emotions. I don't know whether to laugh or cry or both. I settle on a high pitched scream. Jayla scrambles to her feet and holds me tightly. Helping me to the couch, she sits me down next to her. Not letting me go.

"It's ok Sab. Everything is going to be ok. I promise you" Her comforting words not so comforting at the moment. "I don't think I can do this. I can't be a mother. I don't know the first thing about being a mother. I didn't have a great role model. This baby is going to be so screwed up coming from me" I break down in tears.

"No. This baby is going to be loved by you. By Michael, aww hell this baby is going to be loved by me. This is one of the best gifts ever. You've got this girl and we've got you" Jayla's arms are still wrapped tightly around me. I'm holding onto Jayla for dear life. I can only hear my pulse racing. The front door opens and Michael walks in to see Jayla holding a crying me.

"Doll face. Baby. What's wrong?" Just hearing Michael say baby sends me into another round of uncontrollable sobbing. I can't bring myself to look let alone talk to him. Jayla nods her head towards the coffee table at the test for Michael to see. He walks over and picks it up, looking at it he is confused at first until it finally registers and then he is like a kid at Christmas.

"OH MY GOD SABRINA. IS THIS YOURS? DOES THIS MEAN I'M GOING TO BE A FATHER?" He yells and I close up more into myself. "Doll face, look at me please" I raise my eyes to his. He bends down in front of me and cups my face in his hands. "Sabrina, are we having a baby?"

I'm still blubbering like crazy, so I am only able to give him a quick nod. Next thing I know, my arse is being lifted off the couch and wrapped in 2 strong arms. My feet are dangling above the floor. Michael is holding on to me for dear life, kissing my face, whispering how much he loves me and can't wait for our family to grow.

"Baby, you need to calm down ok. It is going to be ok. I promise you. I will look after you and our baby with everything I have. We are going to be ok" Michael whispers to me.

Trying to get myself under control, I take 6 deep breaths through my nose and out of my mouth. Michael finally puts me back on the ground but still won't let me go. I have a tight grip on his suit jacket. My grip is that tight that I am getting white knuckle fever. Finally, my heart rate is slowly coming down, my breathing is at rugged, and the tears are starting to dry up.

"Surprise" I say with a short sarcastic laugh. What the fuck is going on. I pinch myself to make sure this isn't some crazy messed up dream. But nope, that pinch hurt and I am wide awake. Michael stares at me with an amused look on his face. He gently places a hand on my belly and his other on my face looking straight into my eyes.

"Sabs, I love. This is one of the best surprises in the world" he says giving me little kisses all over my face. "I'm sorry. I'm so sorry" I say. My nerves are getting the best of me. "Why are you sorry? You have nothing to be sorry about. This is our destiny. You, me and baby makes three" The grin on Michael's face makes my heart flutter. "Baby makes four" I correct Michael. He stares at me in confusion. Trying to work out where the number 4 comes from. "We get Digby tomorrow. Digby is number 3, this baby makes number 4" I giggle. Michael belly laughs while saying "Well it's you, me, Digby and baby. We've got this"

"Well, I'm gonna go and give you guys some space. I love you both and I will call you later Sabs" Jayla says while standing and grabbing her stuff. In our little celebration we completely forgot Jayla was still here. "I'm so sorry La. I love you too" I say to her. "Bye Jayla. Thank you for being here for Sabrina today" Michael says while giving her a quick side hug.

"Don't mention it you two. If you guys need anything give us a call" Jayla says while letting herself out of the house. As soon as the door is closed behind her, Michael was pouncing on me. His lips crash on mine. It was hungry and it was dirty. The kiss was full of teeth, tongue and lips. When we finally break apart, we are panting like wild beasts.

"You're giving me a baby" Michael says elated. "No. I am not giving you a baby. Michael we are having a baby together and I am shitting my pants as we speak about it" Michael reaches his hand out to me "Come here babe and we can talk about it" I place my hand into his and he pulls me into him. Taking a seat, he pulls me onto his lap and places his hand on my stomach. "Speak. Tell me what is going on in your head" He says.

I can feel the tears start pooling in my eyes again. I look down at his hand resting on my stomach. I take a deep breath and let him in on my thoughts.

"I am scared Michael. I haven't really had a role model and I am scared that I am going to screw this baby up. I don't know the first thing about being a parent. Lord I can hardly look after myself. I am scared that I am going to ruin this poor human with all of my unnecessary issues and that I am going to fail at life's biggest challenges" I can't stop the tears falling from my eyes

"Sabrina, I am scared too. This is one massively huge moment for us to be going through. I for one am positive that this baby is going to be one of the greatest things that we can accomplish together. We will make mistakes. All parents do, but we will also learn from those mistakes. This baby is already loved so much and right now it is probably just a blob sitting in there. Is it too soon to be having a baby? Most likely. Were we a bit silly about not using protection? Definitely. But will we come out the other side of this with more love and gratitude for each other? Most definitely. We have this. We will get through this and live the rest of our lives in love with each other and the family we are going to create. Starting with this blob"

"I love you so much Michael. You always know what to say to make me feel better about everything in life. I cannot wait to start my like with you as your wife and bring our child into the world. We've got this right? I ask softly. "We've got this" He tells me.