I've been waiting

Chapter 36

Sabrina POV

I have now been married to Michael for 6 months. They have been the most amazing 6 months together. For our honeymoon, Michael took me on a road trip for 4 weeks. We stopped at every little cottage and every bed and breakfast we could find. It was the best 4 weeks, but by the end I was happy to come home and be in our own house. Plus, I missed Digby, like crazy I should add.

2 months after we got back Jayla and Shane went on their pre-paid holiday. They ended up going over to England to see Shane's extended family. It had been a while since he has seen them. They spent a lovely 3 weeks over there. When they came home Jayla was sporting a beautiful rock on her finger.

Finally, Shane plucked up the courage and asked her to be his wife. I am absolutely over the moon for them. So that brings us to today. I am 36 weeks pregnant. We decided against finding out what little Simpson's gender is. If Michael has taught me anything it is to appreciate surprises.

This little bubba is no exception. Michael is back at work but will be taking time off soon for the arrival of the little one and has promised he will be home for the first 4 weeks after he or she is born. I think I have fallen more in love with him for that. He made me a promised that I would never walk alone, and he has kept to it.

Every doctor's appointment, every scan, even birthing classes. He has been to everything with me. I am counting down the days until the little one joins us.

"Four more weeks little bean and I'll get to hold you in my arms for real" I say to my stomach while rubbing circles on it. I always talk to little bean. I think they love the sound of my voice already. Every time I walk or sing to him or her, they move around to let me know. Today is no different.

"Ohhhhhh, that hurt" A dull but intense pain shoots across my stomach. I rub it to see if that will calm it down. "All good baby bean. Mummy still loves you".

I look at the clock and see it is a little after 12. I start getting out stuff to make a sandwich. I pull out 2 slices of bread and start putting some butter on one of the slices when another intense pain shoots across my stomach. This pain is worse then the last one and I am now squatting down holding onto the bench. I breath through the pain like the midwife has told me to. I grab my phone to call Michael

*Phone call*

Michael- "Babe, I'm about to go into a meeting. Is everything ok?"

I start sobbing with the pain I am in

Sabrina-" I - I - I'm h - h - hav - ving p - p – pain"

I can't get the words out straight. Now I am worrying Michael won't understand me

Michael- "Sabrina, I'll be home in 10 minutes. Just breath through the pain ok baby. I'll be there soon"

Michael hangs up and I start crying even harder. The pain isn't easing and I am scared out of my mind. Sitting on the floor in the kitchen I start feeling a wetness in between my legs and I start crying more cause I have pee'd myself. Humiliation settles in and I cry hard. The pain doesn't stop and now with the wet floor I feel my world falling apart

"Sabs I'm here" Michael comes running into the kitchen and sees me in a puddle on the floor.

"I pee'd myself" I say through sobs. "Sabrina, unless your pee is red that isn't pee" He says to me calmly Michael pulls out his phone to call for an ambulance. He explains what is going on. I feel woozy, then everything turns to black.

By the time I come to, I am in the back of an ambulance. The paramedic is getting me to suck on a whistle of some sort. I take in deep breaths of this thing and the pain I am feeling is not as bad. We make it to the hospital quickly I am wheeled into the maternity section. There are doctors and nurses running around hooking me up to every machine possible. I am stressing out because Michael isn't with me.

"Where is my husband. I want my husband" I am crying again. I am so scared, and I am alone. I have no idea what is going on and no one is talking to me

Doctor- "Sabrina, we are going to have to give you some medicine that will help speed up your labour. The baby is in a bit of a pickle right now. If this doesn't work, we will have to take you straight in for a c-section"

"What is wrong with my baby" I ask with tears flooding my face

Doctor- "The baby is in a bit of distress. We are going to give you some more pain medication to see if that will help. You need to stay as calm as you possibly can. I don't know what the pain is like but I know it is really bad. But you need to stay strong"

I look at the doctor with tears falling down my cheeks. I am trying my best to stay calm but knowing my baby is in distress makes me worry even more.

"Has my husband arrived yet? I really need him" I no longer get this sentence out when the door to my room opens

"Baby I am here. Everything is going to be ok"

Michael walks in and takes a seat next to me. He kisses my temple and rubs my head in a comforting way. Another strong pain takes me and alarms are going of left, right and centre. The doctor looks at the screens and presses the call nurse button. A nurse rushes into the room

Doctor- "We need to get her up to surgery right away. If we don't this baby will not make it" The doctor only had enough time to get those words out and I am being rushed up to theatre. Michael is still by my side. A nurse tells him he will have to wait outside for a few minutes so they can get me prepped. I am wheeled into the theatre and moved from one bed to another. The doctor starts poking me in the back with needles telling me it will hurt. I hold my breath for as long as I can and feel the pinch from the needle going into my back. A team of nurses lay me down on to the bed

A curtain is draped over me so I cannot see what is happening. Michael is now sitting by my side rubbing my head like he was in the room not too long ago.

"Everything is going to be ok baby. Soon we will have our beautiful hopefully little boy with us"

"You want a boy" I ask Michael. "I'd love one. But no matter what gender the baby is I will love them with every piece of me. But hopefully it will be a boy, boys are predominant in my family"

The doctor starts asking me questions. Making sure I am completely numb. I zone out on what is being said around me. I can feel a lot of pushing and pulling in my stomach area. I am trying to take deep breaths but all I want to do is vomit. I am not paying attention when all of a sudden there is this high pitched crying coming from over the curtain.

Michael stands up to look at our baby. The curtain is dropped and we can finally see our little GIRL. We have a daughter. I am ugly crying at the fact I have a daughter. Michael is a sobbing mess looking at the little bundle of joy we have made. Our little princess to fill in our lives. The baby is taken away to make sure everything is ok with her. Michael is called over to where she is and I can't help but to just look at them. He is talking to her, telling her who he is, like she is going to understand. The doctor closes me up and cleans me up to go to recovery

Doctor- "Everything went well Sabrina. We don't know what caused the blood in your waters but your baby is fighting fit. She might only need to stay in hospital for a week maybe less with the way she is going"

"Thank you so much. Will I have to be here on my own for much longer?"

Doctor- "It shouldn't be too long before you are back on the ward with your family. Try and rest a little bit. Things will be hard for a little while"

The doctor leaves me and I close my eyes for a few minutes. I am extremely happy that everything is ok but very much overwhelmed by everything that has happened. All I know is that I cannot wait to be on the ward with my husband and our beautiful daughter. I just want to hold her in my arms and cuddle her until she is too big to cuddle like a baby.

Once I am finally back on the ward, we sent out a group text to all our friends and family.

*Text* Today at 1:14pm ELIZA FAYE SIMPSON joined us in this big scary world. Mum and bubs are doing well.