I've been waiting

Chapter 24

Sabrina POV

"Ahhhh holy fucking shitballs" I scream as I come to from a nightmare. "What the hell was that?" I ask myself. Panting, trying to get my breath back. I sit up on the bed going over the dream again in my head. "Why is my mind playing tricks on me. That is not going to happen. Well I hope it doesn't" I must look like a crazy woman. Talking to myself.

I'm standing on top of a cliff looking out towards the water. To my right is Michael looking all handsome. Behind us is the celebrant marrying us. Once going over the vows with Michael and I. It has gotten to the part where we are announced husband and wife. The celebrant whispers to Michael. It is now time to push your wife. With those words said Michael pushes me off the edge of the cliff. I'm falling and I'm falling fast. Screaming all the way down. As soon as I hit the rocks below I woke up.

I pull myself out of bed and use the bathroom. I walk out and head into the kitchen, looking at the clock on the wall. It is after 6pm. I pull out stuff for dinner and get it started. Michael isn't home yet, which I am not too worried about. He has to work more hours to be able to have some time off after the wedding.

Cooking a basic meal of pasta and sauce, I start plating up and look at the clock again. It is now a little after 7. I pull out my phone again and call Michael. It rings and rings and rings but still no answer. 'He'll call when he can' is all I can think to myself.

I eat my dinner and wash up my plate. I put Michael's in the fridge. Starting to clean up the loungeroom my phone goes off. I run over to the bench where I left it and look at the caller ID.

*Phone call*

Sabrina- "Hey La. What's up?"

Jayla- "Hey munchkin. What's going on with you? I was just wondering if Michael was around?"

Sabrina- "Nah babe. I think he is still at work"

Jayla- "Oh ok all good then. I'll get him another time. So what's new with you?"

Sabrina- "Oh you know, same same. Just trying to organise a wedding with a missing groom. I'm pretty sure he has run away to Mexico.

We start laughing at this

Jayla- "Nah he looks more like a North Pole, work with Santa, kinda guy"

We finished our conversation and I look again at the time. It is now half past ten. "Where the fuck are you Michael?" I scream and breakdown crying. I lay down on the lounge room floor in the fetal position, holding my knees to my chest. I am uncontrollably sobbing that I don't hear the door opening. Michael comes rushing in, getting down to my level and holding me.

"Babe, what's happened?" He asks with concern lacing his voice. When I finally realise it is Michael, my sadness turns to anger and I can't help the words that come out.

"It is nearly 11pm and you are only just walking in right now. I have called you and you didn't answer. Where the hell have you been Michael?" He looks shocked at my outburst. He goes to open his mouth to speak and I put my hand up to stop him.

"No actually don't tell me. I don't really care where you have been. You make love to me all night and then today, you call me in sick to work and don't answer any of my calls or texts. I'm going to bed. Don't bother following. There is dinner in the fridge but clearly you would have already eaten"

I storm off to the bedroom and slam the door behind me. I lay down on the bed and can't stop the tears that are falling. Of course, all that is going through my head is he was with someone else. He doesn't love me. I am not worthy of his love. I make the rash decision to pack my shit and leave his house. Pulling a suitcase from the closet, I start packing some of my clothes all the while thinking he is better off without me.

Michael walks into the bedroom and sees what I am doing. "Sabrina, what are you doing? Why are you packing?" I turn to look at him "You don't call me all day. You come home after 11pm. Clearly you don't want to be with me and have been seeing someone else. Why else would you be home so late. I'm not worthy of you and now you realise so I am going to go and let you get on with your life. You can now find someone better who will bring you up and not tear you down like I am doing"

"What the actual fuck Sabrina. I didn't answer your calls because my phone was in the car. I have been in meeting after meeting today and tonight. I was planning a surprise with Jayla for you. I was with her when she called you. We wanted to make sure you have no idea what is going on" I can see the anger rolling off Michael.

By this time my anger had reached its peak. "Are you for real. So you couldn't even find 5 fucking minutes today to let me know you were ok. A simple message saying babe I'm good I'll be home late. Or even get Jayla to let me know. I can't believe you right now. Oh little Sabrina will be fine if I go MIA for the day and night. She won't worry. Get a grip Michael. We are meant to be sooooooooooooo in love and getting married in like 6 weeks but a little phone call or message isn't needed"

I drop what I was doing and push past him out of the room. I walk straight to the front door, only grabbing my keys. Michael comes out of the bedroom towards me at the front door. "Where the hell do you think you are going Sabrina?" I scream back at him "Out. Don't wait up"

I slam the front door behind me and start walking. I could hear Michael screaming for me but I just kept walking. I didn't bring my phone or any money with me. I just walked and walked. I needed to get away. To be treated like shit and having him not care like that has pushed me over the edge. I love him with all I have but not even a little message saying he was ok and would be late, has made me feel that I am not that important.

I end up walking to Jayla's house. I have a few things to say to her about all of this. I start bashing on her door. The front porch light switches on and Jayla answers. "Sabs, what are you doing here? It's after 1am. Come inside'

"No I am happy standing here. I am so majorly pissed right now. How dare you ring me and lie to my face. You were with Michael tonight and you couldn't have told me. I thought he was sleeping with someone else or even worse dead in a ditch. I am so angry with you and Michael and everyone else involved. I do not want to hear from anyone right now"

I turn to leave Jayla. She speaks up "Where are you going to go Sabrina?" I scream back at her "Why does it matter. Tonight has proven to me that I am not important. Oh and you can give these back to Michael. I won't be needing them"

I throw my keys and ring at Jayla. She yells at me "That man loves you so much Sabrina. He would move mountains if he could just to make you happy" I turn back to Jayla. So much hurt and pain coursing through me. "Well if he is so great, you have him Jayla. I'm done"