I've been waiting

Chapter 28

Sabrina POV

The next day I woke up feeling very average. I was about to resign from my job. I needed to distance myself from where I was hurt emotionally and physically. Even though he doesn't work there, Jay still haunts me. Every time I walk into the store, my anxiety levels skyrocket.

I get out of bed and make my way to the bathroom. I have the quickest shower. I get out, wrap a towel around me and stand in front of the mirror. I pick up my toothbrush and smear a bit of toothpaste on it. I start brushing my teeth and I start gagging. I can feel the burn at the back of my throat, and I know this isn't good. I put my toothbrush down, squat in front of the toilet and empty what's in my stomach which isn't much.

Sitting on the floor, the tears start I bring my knees to my chest and hug them tight. I can hear Michael rummaging through the bedroom. I slowly start to stand up. My body feels weak and my tears won't stop. I open the door and just stand in the doorway. He comes towards me and just holds me close to him

"Everything is going to be ok baby. Joe is going to understand. Your mental health comes first" Michael whispers softly into my ear. "Everything will work out the way it's meant to. I promise"

All I could do is nod my head. I know Michael was right, but it still hurt so bad. I didn't want to disappoint Mr Jones, but I knew this was going to. My heart was breaking but at the end of the day my mental health needed this. I got dressed and made my way to the kitchen. I needed to eat something small to at least have something in my stomach in case it decided to empty itself. The first thing I saw was an apple. I started biting into the apple and I felt the burn again. I threw the apple and ran

"Sabrina, I think you should go and see a doctor. All this vomiting isn't good for you" Michael says, as he holds my hair back. "It's just stress. I'm ok. I promise. Once I have seen Mr Jones, I should feel better" I say as I stand up. "Ok babe, but if you're not you will be going to the doctor"

I brush my teeth and leave the bathroom giving Michael a kiss on my way past. We head out the front door together. Michael is giving me a lift to the store and then I will make my own way home. We get into the car and he takes off down the street.

Michael glances at me quickly "You'll be ok baby. I promise"

I know that he is just trying to make me feel better, but I can't help the way I am feeling. "I know. I am just feeling down. It is also nearly 'you know what' time. My emotions are all over the place. I am going to see Mr Jones and then I think I will walk straight home and get back into bed for a little bit" I say

"Are you sure you don't want me to wait for you?" Michael asks. "You have that meeting this morning. You cannot keep rescheduling for me Michael. I'll be fine. A bit of fresh air won't hurt me. Plus, with all that junk food I have been eating lately, it wouldn't hurt to walk" I give him my best cheesy smile.

"Ok, ok. But you have to message me when you get home baby" He smiles sweetly back me.

We get to the store. I lean over and give Michael a quick kiss before exiting the car. I close the door, give him a small wave, and make my way into the store. Crossing the threshold of the store my anxiety levels start climbing. I walk to the front desk and ask to speak to Mr Jones. The person serving calls for him over the loudspeaker. I turn around and look out the from windows trying to control my breathing and racing heartbeat.

"Sabrina, honey, lets talk in my office" Mr Jones places his arm around my shoulders. We walk to his office. My heart rate won't slow down. Nothing I do is helping it. We walk into his office and he motions to the seats at his desk. I sit down in one and he takes the one next to me. Mr Jones takes my hands into his and smiles at me

"I'm so sorry Mr Jones. But I have to do this" I say to him with tears already pooling in my eyes. Mr Jones scoots forward on his chair to be closer to me. "Sabrina, I have been waiting for this. I know it was going to happen. We are going to miss you but we also understand that you need to take care of you. Please do not think for one minute that I am disappointed or angry with you"

He takes a breath and continues on "You have been one of the best members of this team and for that I will always be grateful. Being able to watch you grow into this beautiful and wonderful young lady. If you ever feel you would like to come back, I will hire you without a second thought. I am proud of you"

The tears are falling from not only my eyes, but also from Mr Jones'. He pulls me into a hug once we have stood up. "Just remember I will be there to witness you marry that amazing man in just a few weeks" he says with a laugh. "How much did he pay you to say that?" I question back. "Oh you know. We just made a deal. I say that and he will keep my store open" Mr Jones says with a straight face. All I could do was stare at him. Mr Jones starts laughing again. "I'm only joking. He is an amazing man though. You got lucky there. Not many men like me out there and you found my twin"

Mr Jones and I start laughing together. "Oh my god, Mr Jones. Seriously? You had to go there?" Mr Jones pulls me in for one more hug and kisses my cheek.

I couldn't help but feeling so happy that Mr Jones knew what was coming and was so amazing at calming my anxiety. He is like a father to me. Him and Mrs Jones have been like the parents I never had. I give Mr Jones a hug and kiss on the cheek and leave his office. The walk out from the store was better than it has been for a while. It was like the dark cloud had been lifted and I felt lighter than I had in a little while. Yes, I will miss working there but as Michael had said I was doing what was right for me and it was right.