I've been waiting

Chapter 25

Sabrina POV

I turn away from Jayla and walk. The tears are falling hard and fast. I have to stop a few times just to catch my breath. I keep on walking with no care in the world. I keep thinking to myself that no one would miss me if I were to go missing. Everyone I have loved and cared for would move on with their lives as if I was never there.

I stumble across a park and take refuge on a swing. Swaying in the breeze on the swing as my tears are falling hard and fast. Wondering where my life went so wrong. My dad left my mum as he found 'greener grass'. She became addicted to drugs with my brother. Dad rejected me. My mum and brother chose drugs over me. They only needed me when they needed a hit or a punching bag. They left me with not only emotional scars but physical ones too.

Now my best friend and fiancé are keeping secrets from me. My life is a mess. "I have no one to turn to and no where to go" Sometimes talking to myself out loud gives me hope and purpose, but tonight all I feel is nothing. I'm numb and not from the cold. Still swaying in the breeze, I don't hear the person approaching me.

"Do you mind if I sit here?"

"Oh God why am I hearing his voice in my head" I say this out loud not realising he is sitting right beside me on the swings.

"Sabrina, please look at me. I am so sorry for making you worried. I promise you there is no one else"

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Michael POV

She walked out. What the fuck happened. I have no idea how I am going to fix this one. She walked out with no phone and no money. She just took her keys and told me to not wait up. Where is she going to go?

I pace the house, trying to think of what to do. A good hour passes, and I am still pacing the floors of the house. I grab my keys and my phone and head out to my car. I start driving looking for Sabrina everywhere. All the normal places. Her work, my work. The local 24/7 diner. Nope she's no-where. I drive past Jayla's house and it is in complete darkness so she's not there. I continue driving the streets looking for her but to no avail.

It is now 3am and I still cannot see her. How does one person go into hiding with only the clothes on their back and in such a short amount of time. I am brought out of my mind when I hear my phone ringing. I don't bother checking who is calling me I just answer

*Phone call*

Michael- "Sabrina, is that you?"

Jayla- "No it's Jayla. Michael, we need to talk"

Michael- "Jayla, Sabrina walked out on me tonight. We had a massive fight and now I don't know where she is"

Jayla- "I know. She came past mine and tore me a new arsehole. Michael, she threw her keys and ring at me. Told me to give them back to you"

I don't hear anything else after that. I hang up my phone and scream at the top of my lungs. "FUCKKKKKKKKKKKK"

I keep driving. Thinking that if she has been past Jayla's I can try and follow that path. I drive to Jayla's and stop the car. I pull up maps on my phone to see if there is anything that might make Sabrina stop for the night. I come across a park about 4kms up the road. "It's my only shot. I need to find her and explain it to her"

I am talking to myself as I follow the directions on my phone to the park. Hoping and praying that she is here. I don't know what I would do if she was hurt I pull up in front of the park. I turn the car off and get out. I walk slowly into the park to not make too many sounds. If she is here I do not want to scare her off. I can see there is someone sitting on a swing. Slowly and gingerly I make way over to the swings still hoping and praying it is her. As I come up on the swings I can hear her sweet voice

"I have no one to turn to and no-where to go"

I take my chances and sit down in the swing next to her. "Do you mind if I sit here?"

"Oh God why am I hearing his voice in my head"

I take this chance to say quickly what I need to say. Before she actually realises that I am sitting beside her and takes off again

"Sabrina, please look at me. I am so sorry for making you worried. I promise you there is no one else"

"I wanted to surprise you with a gift. A trip overseas for our honeymoon and I didn't want to tell you where we are going to go. I spent time at Jayla's as she is your best friend and I got her help and where to go. Sabrina I love you so much. It was a dick move not to let you know I was ok. Baby please believe me. I don't want you gone out of my life. I need you. You are the reason I wake up every morning. You are the reason I smile every day" She is quiet so I keep going

"You are the reason I am the person I am today. You have given me strength to carry on with the shopping complex. Just days before meeting you I was going to sell the complex and leave. But the minute I saw you my heart decided it needed to change my minds ideas. My heart wanted you and I know now that my brain cannot function without you" My tears are now falling down my face. I keep looking at her, hoping she will look at me

"Please don't leave me because of this fuck up. I need you. Please come home. Please come back to me" I sit still on the swing. I just need Sabrina to know I'm telling her the truth and I need her to come home with me. This woman is the air I breathe. I feel lost without her, even though she is sitting next to me. I still feel lost.