I've been waiting

Chapter 21

Sabrina POV

It's been 4 weeks since my run in with Jay. It's been 2 weeks since my mum's court case. When I had to go in to testify against my mum all the truth from the past 9 years of my life came out. The stealing, the abuse, the neglect. I have been struggling with my depression ever since that day in court. My world feels like it's crashing down around me. Michael has been a pillar of strength. He gives me space when I need it, but he also makes sure that I am ok.

Tonight, we are celebrating our 8th month anniversary. I'm trying to decide on what to wear. Standing in front of my clothes I'm starting to stress that tonight will go bad. I know it is all in my head but sometimes trying to fight the demon on my shoulders is exhausting. They keep telling me that I'm not good enough for anybody, I will never amount to anything. I am worthless and hopeless and to fix all these problems I should just leave and make everyone happy.

"Sabrina, get out of your head. You look constipated. Just relax. You don't need to wear a dress. We are going to grab some burgers and catch a movie" I look at Michael and the tears pool in my eyes. I can't help the way I'm feeling right now, but I also cannot explain it to him. I shake my head and pick out a black singlet top and my blue jeans. I pair that with my ankle boots and a black cardigan.

Once I am dressed, I run a brush through my hair and apply a light makeup. "I'm ready to go now" I say to Michael as I enter the lounge room. "Great, I'm starving" he says back to me with a laugh. "You're always starving" I say in my most condescending voice. "I'm a growing boy if you haven't noticed" He quips back. "Yeah growing outwards, not upwards"

Michael grabs my face in both of his hands and licks my forehead. "There will be more of that if you keep going smartarse" He pulls me into a hug. "I'm sorry. Please don't lick my face again" I say as I squeeze him tighter to me. He places a hand under my chin and raises my head to look up at him. Michael leans down and places a soft but sweet kiss to my lips.

"Let's go. I could eat the arse out of a low flying duck right about now" He says to me and I crack up laughing. We walk out the door and lock up the house. The car ride to the burger joint is quiet. Enough time to try and talk some sense into myself. We arrive and take a seat in the restaurant. Placing our orders with the waitress, the conversation is light and breezy. Michael telling jokes just to make me laugh. By the time our meals arrive my ribs are hurting from all the laughing and I am constantly wiping tears from my eyes.

"So babe, I was thinking we could watch the latest slasher movie tonight" I look at Michael after he mentions the slasher film. "As long as you don't bring up your dinner like last time. I'm game" The last time we watch a horror movie, Michael lost the contents of his stomach, which in turn made me lose mine. It was a very, very messy night.

"I'm tough babe. It is not going to happen again" I look at him with a raised eyebrow. I shake my head at him with a small smile on my face. "You ready to get this going. Maybe after the movie if you are feeling up to it. We can maybe talk about our wedding?" Michael asks with hope filling his eyes. "Sounds good babe" I say back with a big smile on my face.

We watch the movie and surprisingly Michael kept the contents of his stomach in his stomach. We are walking back to the car when Michael stops me. "Babe, how about your birthday. It is only 3 months away" I look at him and I mean I really look at him. My mind is running through everything possible to work out why he mentioned my birthday.

"What about my birthday. I know it is only 3 months away. Did you want to plan something for it?" I ask him, curiosity lacing my voice. "Yeah babe, I want to plan something big for it. I was thinking maybe that could be our wedding day?" The hopefulness in his eyes lets me know he is legitamatly asking for our wedding to be on my birthday. I am stunned into silence. It'll be my first birthday with Michael, but he also wants it to be our wedding anniversary

"Are you sure? Wouldn't you like a special day? Not celebrate 2 things on the one day?" I question back. "No I think it'll be perfect for us. I will always make sure that your birthday and our anniversary are celebrated. I just want to marry you Sabrina. I want to make you my wife and give you my last name. I want you to carry our children. I want everything with you"

My heart melts at his declaration of love. "Well it looks like we have a date sorted. So I have 3 months to plan everything. We will need a venue, a celebrant, I will need to organise my dress and suits for you and the boys. Oh and the reception. Way too many things with no time" I take a deep breath. Trying to let the anxiety go.

"Sabrina, look at me" He lifts my chin to look at him. "We have plenty of time to organise all of that. We need to call Jayla and get her help. Give her a call and put her on speaker" Michael smiles at me. I pull my phone out and call Jayla.

*Phone call*

Jayla- "Sup Sabs. Shouldn't you be deep throating by now?"

Sabrina- "La you are on speaker. Not quite the conversation I would lead with babe"

Jayla- "Oh shoot. My bad. What's up babe?"

Sabrina- "Oh not a lot. Michael just thought that we should tell you that we have a date set and I really need my besties help planning for it"

Jayla screams down the line. Michael and I wince at the same time hearing her screech

Jayla- That's amazing. When is the big day?"

Sabrina- "3 months. On my birthday"

Jayla- "Ohhhh a December wedding. Sounds perfect. Okay. Well what were you thinking exactly"

Michael- "I thought that maybe we could do it at home. In the backyard. Keep it small and simple.

Sabrina- "Oh that is a great idea"

Jayla- "Perfect. Okay, guys, come to mine tomorrow night for dinner. We can sit down and work out a plan of attack then"

We say our goodbyes and hang up the call. Praying that the planning will go smoothly and this wedding will be everything we have ever dreamt of.