I've been waiting

Chapter 32

Sabrina POV

Every day with Michael is getting better and better. He is finally on holidays which means that I am getting married in a week. The days are going so slowly. Jayla has been an amazing support this week. With all of the all-day sickness from the pregnancy and the bouts of nerves that come with most brides-to-be, she has been at my side reminding me that I am doing the right thing. No, don't get me wrong thinking that I am making a mistake. I know I am doing the right thing because that man is the man who I love with everything I have.

No, she is reminding me that my life is only going to get better. She is reminding me that I have come so far from the shell of the girl I was. Michael has brought life back into my soul. He has helped me repair the hole that my life was in. He supplied the dirt to fill that hole. Jayla is just reminding me of that. She is reminding me that my life is only just beginning again but this time I will have someone walk beside me, not drag me behind them like I was being.

"I have a present for you Miss Jayla" I say to her as I sit down on the couch. "Oh I love presents. What did you get me Sabby?" She yells from the kitchen. "You'll have come in here to see it" I yell back.

Michael and I planned on getting Jayla and Shane a pre-paid vacation. One where they can go where they want all expenses paid. That was still going ahead but I saw a beautiful diamond pendant that she would love. It was white gold in the shape of ladybug. It had 2 small diamonds to make up the eyes of the bug. Jayla was a huge ladybug lover. She even had them tattooed on her.

Jayla runs into the lounge room and jumps onto the couch next to me. "I'm here. Gimme gimme" she says with a giggle. "How old are you again Jayla?" I ask with a laugh. "I'm 3. Now hand it over" I glare at Jayla. She looks back at me with a huge smile on her face. I hand the bag over to her and she rips into the paper on top. As soon as she has pulled out the little box and opened it, the smile on her face grows and the tears in her eyes start falling.

"Oh my god Sabrina. I love it. Thank you so much" She says as she throws her arms around my neck. "Anything for my bestie. You know without you in my life. I would be anywhere but here" I say while pulling back a little from her tight hug. We are both crying. Jayla knows exactly what I meant with what I said. Her friendship is what has saved me from taking my own life to get away from the pain and torture I have suffered.

"Okay, seriously Sabby. No more presents okay. You have given us enough over the past few weeks. The biggest one being that baby growing in your belly" Jayla says while she is touching my belly. Cooing at it already. "Just promise me there are no more presents, Sabrina"

I smile a big grin at her "Oh, I promise there isn't anymore" I say knowing full well that there is still that one massive present waiting for her and Shane.

Once Jayla had left my house a couple of hours later, I started on cooking our dinner. I was in the kitchen, cutting up the vegetables for our stir-fry, when 2 hands come from behind me. One on my belly the other on my breast. I drop the knife down onto the counter and turn around into the chest of the man I love. I look up into his face and see the love I have for him returned to me in his eyes.

"If you don't stop manhandling me, we will not be eating tonight" I say to him. "I can eat you for dinner and dessert" he says while groping my backside. "Michael stop it. Think of the baby. He or she needs real food and you don't like me when I am hungry. Remember what your words were?" "Yes I remember" He looks at me defeated. "Well seeing as I can't have you for dinner, can I have you for dessert?" He says as he winks at me. "I'll think about it. Now scram, so I can get back to what I was doing"

Dinner was cooked and eaten pretty quickly. The whole time we were sitting at the table he kept making bedroom eyes at me. I would laugh at him and just shake my head. I cleaned up our plates and put them in the sink to be washed. As I was starting to wash the dishes, Michael came back to stand behind me again. Touching every part of my body that he knew would get me going. I drop the plate I was about to wash back into the sink and turn around. There was no escaping what he had planned to do

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The next few days just flew by. Everything was being set up for the wedding that was happening in just 3 days. To say I was nervous was an understatement. That old saying 'must be cold feet' was so true. I went into a full meltdown, saying I couldn't go ahead with the wedding. It wasn't me making a mistake, Michael was making the biggest mistake of his life.

Through all of my meltdowns and tears though he was amazing. Pulling me back up to be beside him not behind him. The depression hole was being filled up again. Little by little, Michael made sure that what we were doing was the right thing. We were making the right choices together. He was making the right choice.

I keep replaying the only part of a conversation we had in my mind, he told me he would always choose me. There was no one else in this world he would want more than me. He isn't making a mistake and he would never ever call me one of those either. I knew he loved me, but my brain just kept firing off blanks I'm sitting on our bed reading a pregnancy book. Michael comes in and joins me on the bed. He looks at what I am reading and places his hand on my stomach, he then looks into my eyes

"3 more sleeps our and lives as husband and wife will begin" I repeat his words after him "3 more sleeps"