Harry styles Book 3

Panic

I never know what starts these panic episodes or How I can even end them quicker then they start.

So I just let them run their course. Unless Harry is around then he tries to help me out and a great majority of the time he suceeds in helping me.

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I am sitting on the couch when my breathing becomes labored, my senses of hearing fades to nothing as tears well up in my eyes.  

I stare off at nothing and just bring my legs up to my chest wrap my arms around them and hold my legs close to my body in the worse possible hug. 

Slowly but surly I start rocking back as my breathing worsens and all the thoughs of everything I am scared of thinking hits me like a wrecking ball hits a condemed bulding.

I hear nothing and see nothing  too lost in my panic attack to notice anything or anyone.

I jump when Harry touches me and I look at him.

"What's wrong?" I read his lips and cry more. 

HE brushes they hair from my face and picks me up in his arms before carrying me off some where.

slowly my sense of hearing reaturns and I foucs on Harry's voice.

"I will take care of you my love, don't worry" He promises

I nod my head and hold on to him as he carries me into our room and lays me on the bed removing my shows before he is quick to remove his as well then joins me.

I wrap my arms around him and cling to him like a panda on a bamboo tree.

"It's ok love."

"I hate these" I say my voice sounding unlike how I normally do.

"I know baby, we all do" Harry replies as he holds me close and has me look at him.

"I want you to do like I am doing alright."

I nodded my head and watched what he was doing and I mocked him.

He smiled as I kept mocking his breathing till mine got down to normal.

"Alright there you go."

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Once I had calmed down Harry kept me in his arms and I laid my head on his shoulder and just cried.

"Why are you crying angel, its ok nothing will hurt you."

"I just hate that my panic attacks come out of no where and I lose my sense of hearing and my vision blurs. I stare of to nothing and just think of all that I am scared about and it makes me really freak out."

He kisses my forehad and wipes my eyes.

"Well I know you fear that I will leave you but I toldd you long ago when I myself started to fear you leaving me that  Iwill never ever leave you or make you leave me. I am madly in love with you and I dont want to love any other woman the way that I love you."

I smiled as I lifted up my head and looked at him.

"I don't want you to fear tht I will leae you.casue Baby you are it for me I love you  more then I love myself and that is a lot. I will never hurt you or do anything for you to leave me."

He nods his head and kisses me softly before I lay my head back down as He rubs my back.

"Your the only one that can help me with these panic attacks." I confess.

"Glad to be able to help my angel out."

Nothing else was said as he held me close and comforted me.