Live Through the Pain - Kagehina Angst

Chapter nine - Rain

Kageyama POV.

I was happy. Things would be okay. At Least I hoped. Hinata had healed up just fine. His volleyball hadn't suffered. It had been a long, stressful month (for Hinata especially). But it was all okay now.
However, unease still dwelled in the back of my mind. Was he okay? Was he going to be okay? He just lost his mother after all, not to mention his home. The words still rang in my head:

It's all my fault. It's all my fault.

Part of me didn't want to admit it, but I was still worried. Him collapsing during class hadn't helped for sure.

He had seemed tired this morning, although I hadn't had a chance to confront him about it because the moment I arrived, class started. And now didn't seem like a good time either.

What had he been dreaming about? If you could call it a dream. It didn't seem like he fell asleep, more like he passed out on the spot. He hadn't woken up right away either, and that had scared the shit out of me. It had taken a full five minutes to get him to snap out of it, during which he had been trembling ever so slightly(I was painfully reminded of his seizure) and his eyes were shut tight, as if he were in pain.

And when he finally woke up, he had looked so relieved yet at the same time extremely shaken. Not to mention the tears that had escaped his eyes.

I wondered if it had been a good idea to let him come back to school, but I knew if I brought that up right now, with his current state of mind, he would probably go berserk.

Still I was happy, sitting there, his warm body leaning against mine.

God he was adorable.

Subconsciously, he nuzzled his soft hair against my face and I couldn't help but smile.

Cute.

He was a dumbass. But an adorable dumbass. My dumbass.

Turning my gaze to the window, I looked up at the sky. The gentle morning sun had drifted behind white clouds, which were growing darker by the second.

Is it going to rain?

I was slightly disappointed. Contrary to what some people thought, I never liked the rain. It felt like the entire world was weeping silently. No, I prefered the sun. It was warm and bright. Admittedly, it could get bothersome at times, but most of the time it was gentle and nice.

Or maybe I just suddenly started liking the sun because of Hinata. He was like sunshine after all. I wouldn't be surprised, a lot of things changed because of Hinata. For me anyway. I had long since given up on trying to make sense of my weird-ass thoughts. It was just useless and exhausting.

Still, I had to admit that the rain was soothing. It held a gentle rhythm, tapping the glass, as if asking to come in. What weird imagery. Why the fuck would rain want to come in. I even weirded myself out sometimes. I leaned against the cold glass, watching the buildings and trees zip buy. The downpour had increased by several amounts. Even though I had gotten a full night's sleep yesterday, I wouldn't be surprised if I dozed off again.

But just as I began drifting off, The bus hit a bump and my head slammed against the glass.
I bit my tongue to stop from cussing loudly, I didn't want to wake up Hinata after all.
But he did.

"Whaaa..." He said, yawning and stretching like a kitten.
"Mmm..." He blinked sleepily.

"Kageyama? wha..? Oh right." He looked around, probably getting his bearings straight. He looked at me with half lidded eyes. He was clearly tired.