Live Through the Pain - Kagehina Angst

Chapter twenty three - Sorry

(A/N It would be great if you guys could listen to the song....if you can't understand the lyrics(its a bit hard) then please watch the video! It would mean alot to me....Its the second ending theme for Banana Fish btw thanks!:))

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Hinata POV

I ran, I ran, out the door, down the sidewalk and beyond my street.

I was panicking, I didn't know what to do.
But most of all, I was terrified, fear, coursing through my veins.

My heart pounded un my skull as I panted heavily, gasping as the cold night air shocked my lungs.

Honestly, it was a miracle that I could run so much after all the convulsions m body had gone through.

My mind was spinning in all sorts of directions, going compeletly beserk.
Tears were slipping down my face as my entire body screamed in agony.
A cry of pain left my throat as my mind writhed.

Oh god...oh god what do I do....Shit no....
Dammit....DAMMIT!
I'm done....I just want to be done. I JUST WANT TO FUCKING BE DONE! I don't want to live like this....
I just want to....relax...

It hurts....IT HURTS SO MUCH!!...
I'm going insane...I'm going insane...
I just...want to be done.

Finally, I stopped, catching my breath.
My hands were on my knees, and I was doubled over.

A sob tore from my lips as I cried, desperatly trying to sort my thoughts out.

Then I heard him.
"Hinata!"

My eyes widened.
Kageyama was running towards me, clearly having followed me.
"Hina...ta..please...wait!.." Kageyama shouted, panting.

He was across the street from me, and the street was a couple lanes wide, so he had to yell quite loudly to get his voice to reach me.
Tear spilt from my eyes like mini waterfalls.

I couldn't bring myself to respond, my voice getting caught in my throat.

Finally, I managed to speak, or rather sob.

"I'm sorry....I'M SORRY! I just....I...I'M REALLY SORRY! I'm lost...I DON'T KNOW ANYMORE!" I sobbed, my voice craking from the pain that was attacking at my heart.

My knees hit the sidewalk and I clutched my scalp as my voice grew hoarse from crying shouting.
"I'm...I'm just going insane...." I whispered to myself.

I'm falling apart...I can't take it anymore....I can't...It's too much to bear....I'm breaking...
I'm sorry....I'm really sorry...

Then I heard something.
In the quietness of the night, I heard the unmistakable sound of an engine or a motor.
I bolted upright, my eyes wide.

I stared down the street, there it was.
The unmistakable sillhouette of a car, or maybe even a truck.
In the darkness of the night, the figure was hard to see, but I was still able to tell.

It's the middle of the night! Why the fuck aren't the headlights on?!

Then the realization hit me. Fear chilled me to the bone.
At the top of my lungs, I shouted:

"KAGEYAMA MOVE!"

He hadn't noticed...he hadn't noticed!! HOW THE FUCK DID HE NOT NOTICE?!

Kageyama froze.
He turned his head and his face filled with fear.

"KAGEYAMA WHY THE HELL AREN'T YOU RUNNING?!" I screamed.

He was standing in the middle of the road.
He wasn't moving.
He just stood there, stock still, his face frozen in fear.