Live Through the Pain - Kagehina Angst

Chapter twenty eight - Sunshine

(A/N If you guys don't know the tune to the song above then please watch/listen to it!:))

Kageyama POV

The cherry blossoms were beautiful. Finally, sakura season had arrived, on the news at least. Several areas in japan had already burst into bloom with the charming pink flowers. Miyagi would arrive soon. The team had planned a cherry blossom veiwing party at Suga's house. (Daichi had volunteered, since he was the captain. But Suga had a nicer place and was better with hosting group events supposedly. I just thought Suga wanted to be mama crow and look out for everyone again. No complaints here.) I wasn't sure how I felt about that. I...I wanted to be with him. Hinata. I visited his house every. single. day. His dad and Natsu knew I was coming, so I didn't exactly ask permission anymore. Part of me was curious as to how the party would go. I could tell tha everyone was still suffering under the weight of what had happened. But I knew this was Suga's best attempt at cheering everyone up. I appreciated that. I also didn't want to go because...I didn't want to ruin there happiness. I wasn't exactly the nicest presence. I still couldn't bring myself to speak or smile.
But I was sure that I wasn't....empty anymore.
At least I hoped so.

Over this period of intense misery, I had discovered something....unexpected about myself.
I could sing.

Yup, that was right.
Tobio frickin Kageyama could use his vocal chords for something besides yelling.
Surprise surprise.

It was...it was really weird. I hadn't really ever sang a song before. And now that I thought about it, that was weird as hell. All the schools I had gone to didn't have choir classes. And if they did I certainly wasn't enrolled in any. And my parents never played the radio, at least not for music. They liked listening to the news though. And even though I had music on my phone, it was pretty much pure orchestral music. So, I guess I just never sang.

So for the first time in my life, I sang a song.
And I fell in love with singing.

And....as crazy as it may sound, I wrote him a song.
A year ago, I would have NEVER imagined feeling like this. Hinata changed me. He changed me more then I wanted to admit. I had never been in love before. I hadn't known what it was like. I hadn't known what it was like to be loved in the way Hinata loved me. I hadn't ever felt the intense joy and happiness, that I only felt around him.
And I had never known....how it felt to be in this. much. pain.
I hadn't known what it was like to feel so incredibly numb.
I hadn't known what it was like to be so incredibly empty.
I hadn't known what it was like to be so...broken.
Shattered.
Lost.
Emotionless.

I was...so cold.
It was...so dark.
So dark without him.
So dark without sunshine.

Because he was my sunshine.
My sunshine.

I took a deap breath, and began to sing.

You are my sunshine

You are my sunshine, my only sunshine,

You make me happy, when skies are grey.

You'll never know dear, how much I love you.

So please don't take my, sunshine away.

The other night dear, as I lay sleeping,

I dreamt I held you, in my arms.

But when I woke dear, I was mistaken,

So I wept as I wished at the stars.

The night was silent, until I screamed dear,

As you fell into, a slumber so deep.

I wonder if you, will ever wake dear,

Buried in silence, an endless sleep.

Your face is stone-cold, against my hand love,

I need to see you, some forsaken day.

In devestations, held by eternity,

With desperate dreams now, I hopelessly pray.

The days have passed now, flooded with agony,

As the world falls, apart at my hands.

I think I'll join you, and forever rest,

Peaceful passing, this is my last stand.

You are my sunshine, my only sunshine,

You make me happy, when skies are grey.

You'll never know dear, how much I love you.

So please don't take my, sunshine away.

You were my sunshine, my only sunshine,

You made me happy, when skies were grey.

But now you're gone dear, I'm left to wonder,

Why did you take my, sunshine away?

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(A/N DISCLAIMER: THIS IS MY OWN VERSION OF THE SONG. I CREATED IT FOR THE STORY BUT THESE ARE NOT THE ORIGINAL LYRICS. Also....I'M SORRY IF THIS CHAPTER WAS CRINGEY! AND I KNOW IT'S REDICULOUSLY SHORT.....SORRY. OKAY. BYE. :))

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