Live Through the Pain - Kagehina Angst

Chapter thirteen - Panic

Hinata POV

The next morning, I felt like the walking dead, which was nothing new.

My mind shifted to auto pilot as I took care of the morning chores, got dressed, and headed out. Natsu got picked up for school, and I sped off to Karasuno as soon as she left.

As the mountain grew steeper, I felt the little energy I had residng within me, begin to drain out. I felt hollow. My bones felt hollow. They felt flimsy and heavy. My headache had stayed with me all night, effectivly keeping me awake, which was in some crazy sense, a relief. Still, it hadn't left. Even now, as I pushed myself to continue on the strenuous path, my head continued to throb painfully. It felt like there were a dozen, miniscule daggers attacking it. I took a deap breath, breathing in the crisp morning air, as I tried and failed to speed up.
I'm going to be late at this point.

I should honestly get used to this by now. The coughing I can understand, but the headaches? I've been putting up with those since I woke up more then a month ago! Although...I suppose I did take the pills back then...not to mention that the pain seems to be getting worse with every breath I take...Dammit! At this rate...I'm not gonna be able to hide it much longer!

My mind felt a bit foggy...and my thoughts felt slow. Every breath I took seemed to add a miniscule amount of extra pressure on my lungs, slowly adding up into an agonizing amount.

Panting, I paused for a moment, letting my muscles relax. Slowly but surely, the pain residing in my chest began to fade, until it was gone.

I sighed. How am I supposed to deal with this? If I even put the smallest amount of exertion on my body, it feels like theres a extremly tight band wrapped around my lungs...

Taking another breath, I continued on my way, my head throbbing and my ears ringing painfully.
As I pushed myself to hurry up, my vision swayed dangerously. I stopped once more. The trees seemed to shift and swim dreamely, as another wave of pain swept over my brain.
I couldn't help it, I cried out. Clutching my hair like a lifeline, I tried desperatly to steady my mind.
I shook my head, ridding myself momentairily of the dizziness.

I continued on.

As I walked into the Karasuno gym, I felt like I was floating. Almost in a daze, I did my stretches, practiced the warmups and got ready for a scrimmage, my mind going through the daily routine on auto-pilot.

The score was pretty much a tie. We were in the middle of a break. I gulped the water down quickly, trying to get my migrane to decrease somewhat. Sadly, it didn't work.
A few minutes before Coach Ukai blew the whistle, signaling to resume the game, Tadashi approached me.
"Hey Hinata?"
"Hmm?"
"Are you okay?"

I froze.

"W-what? Why wouldn't I be?"
"Well it's just...Kageyama told me to ask you...He's noticed that..well actually we've all noticed that you've seemed kinda...off these last few days."

Had it really been that obvious?

"What do you mean, off?"
"Well...I mean obviously you're not gonna be all sunshine and rainbows right after what happened, but I dunno...and Kageyama seemes especially worried. I just wanted to make sure...because I know that you and your mom and Natsu moved right? Cuz your old house..."

My heartbeat rang in my chest. I realized that nobody on the team besides Kageyama and Takeda knew that my mom was dead....

"Anyway! I was just checking!" He said, smiling apologeticly.
"Thanks. I'm fine though I promise! The incident was more then a month ago! I'm okay. So don't worry okay? And tell Kageyama not to worry too." I said, laughing and giving him my best smile, before looking at Kageyama who looked away, blushing.