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I'm home alone as my parents are already working. This is the perfect time for me to eat. I take a deep breath as I look at the plate set in front of me.

I'm about to have my only meal for today...

I'm hungry which makes me optimistic about this but I'm not sure how long it will last. I wait for a little bit for the pancake to cool down; I added some blackberries and strawberries to give my body something better...

I clumsily take the fork with my left hand. I have been starting to do everything with my left hand as it is very uncomfortable to do many things with my right hand because of eczema. It's better this way.

I cut a piece of the spongy pancake. I eat it without problems and I actually enjoy it. I start to eat normally but slow just in case...

After the fifth piece, I start to feel sick. I heavily sigh as the problems are starting. I haven't eaten half of the pancake and I'm already full even though I haven't been eating properly all this time...

I set the fork down. I lean on the chair to rest my head on the end of it. I let a couple of minutes go by before I take the fork again to cut a piece. I gulp nervously as I take the piece.

I retch as soon as I try to gulp down the pancake. I cover my mouth with my hand to stop myself from making a mess. Luckily for me, nothing bad happens.

I harshly gulp down. I loudly retch again but I continue with this new cycle.

Food in mouth-retch-gulp down-retch.

This is why I eat when no one is around.

I smile victoriously when I see the plate empty. Tears have been running down my cheeks as this has been torture.

I laugh like a maniac as I look up to the ceiling. If I move from here I'm sure I will throw up so I just stay still on the chair with my legs pressed against my chest.

I take deep breaths to calm myself.

This is definitely going to be my only meal for today; I'm not willing to go through that once again.

After about half an hour, I feel normal. I sigh before I stand.

I go to my room to change my clothes before I go out.

Maybe going out for a while will cure my depression...

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-JUNGKOOK'S POV-

I want to go on a date with Yunhee but I don't know what would be a good idea...

Does she like burgers...?  We could go out to eat...

Or maybe ice cream would be a better idea?

I don't know... I have never had a date before.

I get out of my house to have a walk.

I sigh as I look at the time, 1:40 p.m. I'm on time to take the bus... I think about it a couple of seconds before I start to walk towards the bus stop.

My heart skips a beat when I see Yun already at the bus stop waiting.

The same junkies always are waiting for the bus as well. One of them is having a quick nap on the bench with his bike next to him while the other one waits a couple of meters away.

A smile appears on my face as I walk to her. I put my hands inside my pocket to look cool. "Hey Yun."

She looks up from her phone. A small smile appears on her face when she sees me.

We were together last night holding hands...

I can still remember the beautiful feeling of her little hand in mine.

I stand next to her as we wait for the bus.

She walks closer to me to the point where our shoulders touch. I look down gulping nervously. My face is already heating up.

After a couple of minutes, the bus stops in front of us.

Now here's the question... do I sit next to her...? Would it be weird?

I take a deep breath. "Can I sit with you?" I ask making puppy eyes.

Her eyes soften. "Sure."

We all get on the back of the bus for some reason.

After a couple of minutes in the ride, I see Yun struggling to keep herself awake.

I softly push her head down to my shoulder.

"To where are you going?" I ask her to be able to wake her up later on.

"To the main bus station, " she babbles already falling asleep.

That's the last stop.

I relax in my seat as well. I take her hand in mine as I crave the feeling. Her little hand softly squeezes mine making me smile.

We have half an hour ahead before we get to the neighbor town.

I look around finding the other two passengers already sleeping.

Yun and I are going to the last stop so I decide to close my eyes.

This feels just like yesterday with the bus's air conditioner.

I smile as I feel loved by her...

She trusts me enough to sleep resting her head on my shoulder.

Things like this make me more confident about establishing a romantic relationship with this cutie.