Courtney Amethyst (Ciervo Series #1)

Chapter 10

When I finally calmed my nerves up, I went inside my bathroom and took a bath.

The whole trip going here, I haven't talked to a single person. Kahit kay Tito ay hindi na ako nakapag paalam. If Daddy was there, for sure he's going to scold me. He would probably tell me that I'm being very rude.

Eh sa wala ako sa mood makipag usap sa mga tao. And the fact that in the first place, I already dislike talking to other people, really shouts something.

Pagkatapos kong maligo ay humilata lang ako sa kama. I stared at the ceiling until I decided to get my phone. I played a song and listened to it.

I didn't know staring at the ceiling was exhausting, and without realizing it, I dozed off to sleep.

Nagising ako sa kalagitnaan ng panaginip ko. I don't remember what it was, but when I woke up, I was breathing heavily.

Agad akong tumayo at dumeretso sa CR para maghilamos.

When I looked at myself in the mirror, I was shocked to see how swollen my eyelids were.

Wala na nga akong eyebags dahil nakabawi ako sa pagtulog, pero namaga naman ng sobra ang mata ko dahil sa panaginip.

What a life, and why am I even crying? Agad kong binuksan ang faucet ng lavatory ko at naghilamos ng mukha.

I didn't even realize that I fell asleep.

Buti na lang at walang maingay at walang nambulabog sa akin. Maybe Kuya Chris said to not make anything that will probably get me really pissed off.

Bukas pa ata uuwi sina Mommy at Daddy, kaya ngayon ay hindi namin kailangan kumain ng sabay, which is an advantage for me because I don't need to face everyone tonight.

Maybe my attitude a while ago was really bad. Now I feel bad about it. For sure narinig nila 'yong mga sigaw ko kanina.

Nakakahiya!

Sumalapak ako sa kama at binaon ang mukha ko sa unan ko.

"What the heck did you do, Courtney? Napakatanga mo naman!" Ginulo ko ang buhok ko at umupo.

I stared at the wall just behind my bed.

"Ano'ng katangahan 'yon, Courtney? You acted really rash which is unlike you! You should have just chill and not mind the people around you! Now you look like a total loser and they will probably judge you now!" I told myself.

I usually talk to myself, but I can't bring myself to talk to other people.

Para bang, sa pamamagitan ng pag-usap sa sarili ko, roon ko nagagawang ilabas lahat ng naiisip ko.

I have no one else to talk to but myself.

I couldn't really talk to my siblings, they'll probably just end up not getting what I'm saying.

They're single minded while I... think of a lot of confusing things.

I sighed as I lay down on my bed again.

"What do I do now?"

I decided to finish the book that I was reading, which is entitled The Selection, and I did.

Pagkatapos kong magbasa ay saka ko lang napansin kung ano'ng oras na.

It's almost midnight and my tummy is already rumbling.

I haven't eaten lunch, and I didn't want to because I was ashamed of facing everyone.

I may look thick skinned, but I get ashamed too. Especially around people whom I don't know.