The horror daunted me.
Natahimik ako sa sinabi niya.
That night wherein everything fell apart, because of me, an innocent boy got hurt. I cried for that boy, wishing that it was me who got shot, 7 years ago. I blamed it on myself, all on me. Just like how people blamed it on me.
I lost my sense of self. I lost myself the moment my singing career ended. I don't blame it on the kid, I blame it on myself. I always felt guilty for the boy who got shot. I never even had the chance to ask for his forgiveness.
Nanigas ako sa sinabi ni Cole. Kumurap-kurap ako at dahan-dahan siyang tinignan, pero naluluha na ako kaya hindi ko na siya makita ng maayos.
"H-How did you get it?" I bit my lips.
He looked at me as if he was guilty. Nagaalanganin siya kung sasabihin niya ba sa akin o hindi.
He cupped my face and wiped the tears on my cheeks. Hindi ko namalayang umiiyak na pala ako. Napasinghot ako at iniwas ang mukha ko sa kanya. He looked hurt.
"I... it's not important..." His eyes showed compassion.
"It is, Cole! I want to know..." I whispered as I begged.
Naalala ko na. That's why the boy in the picture frame that I saw in their house looked so familiar. It's because it's him! He's that boy...
"It's from a c-concert..."
My heart dropped upon hearing it coming from him. I already suspected it, but it hurts more now. I couldn't believe it, because of me, he got that scar. Because of me, he got hurt.
I felt guilty and I didn't even look at him. I couldn't. After all, they didn't even press charges against me.
"Hey..." his voice felt like home. He held my wrist and slowly, he held my hands. His warm touch almost melted me.
Tinaas niya 'yon at hinalikan ang likod ng palad ko.
Napapikit ako at nanahimik. I'm crying right now, and I couldn't even stop it.
How many times do I have to cry in front of him? The person who I despised the most, who is now the person I love, but is also the person whom I destroyed.
Paano na lang kapag nalaman ng iba? What would they think? Would they separate us both?
These past few months have been rough for us because of how famous our names are. Konting mali ay malalagay na kami sa news. How about this thing? I'm sure they'll bring this up. That's how the media works now.
"S-Stop..." sabi ko. He stopped giving my hands a shower of kisses.
I felt his hands turn cold. I looked at him with determination in my face.
"What do you m-mean?"
Mas lalo akong nasaktan sa tanong niya. Is this what I really want?
"Hindi tayo pwede, Cole..." I said.
In a snap, he unconsciously let go of my hand. Tila nawalan siya ng buhay. His eyes turned dark. Pain and sadness were visible in it.
Natahimik kami. I stopped crying as I saw how hard he tried not to shed a tear. Tumingala siya at kitang-kita ko kung paano tumaas-baba ang kanyang adam's apple. His jaw clenched afterwards.
Tanging ang pagpatak lang ng ulan ang maririnig. The surroundings are silent. Wala naman kasing ibang tao rito kung hindi ay kami.
"Bakit?" he finally asked after a couple of minutes.
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