Stuck with you ✔️

Day 4

Baz

    I've really started enjoying watching Death note with Si- Snow (that's new, I never mess up his name). The first night was admittedly nerve-racking, but the next night he ended up resting his head against my shoulder. At first it took me by surprise, but it was nice to realize he wouldn't mind if I got more comfortable. Tonight while we were watching our episode, I ended up wrapping an arm around him when he rested his head on my shoulder. It was nice having another person resting against me, another solid presence. Makes everything feel a bit more normal.

    I'm realizing now that (it's probably just because he's my only option right now) I might be developing a bit of a crush on him... maybe.

    There's no way I'm going to tell him that though. Because, one: I don't want him to feel uncomfortable sharing a room with me, and two: it would go right to his head. He does not need that ego boost.

    As I'm trying to fall asleep all I can think about is how nice it would be to have another person to cuddle with right now. And I instantly hate myself when I realize I have a specific person in mind when I think that.

Simon

    I bet Baz is doing fine right now. In the two years I've known him, I've never once seen him bring a girl, oh I guess it would be a guy... anyways I've never seen him bring a guy into our dorm. Not once.

    I realize that he might only go to their rooms, but I don't know how that even works, because he's always home before the next morning. Maybe he's having a hard time with this like I am... maybe I should ask him. No. No way. If I ask him if he is missing his usual sex life, that sounds too much like a proposal for us to do something about it. There's no way I'd ask him about that, it's too risky.