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Until I forget

I sit at the bar and buy myself a thousand and one drinks.

I wander the shore. My tears mix with the salt water. No one can tell the difference.

I lie in bed, craving the warmth of another human being.

I wait for my family to come home. I stand in the dark hallway of my home, arms hanging limp at my sides. I wait to embrace the friends who I know will never return.

The bottom of the bottle is my only friend.

I drink until I forget about him.

About my boyfriend.

About Denki Kaminari.

I drink until I forget how I stood still and watched.

I could have saved him.

I drink until I forget seeing the blade pierce his body.

I could have pushed him out of the way.

I drink until I forget how that awful woman tossed him aside like he was nothing.

I could have killed her and called an ambulance for him.

I drink until I forget his pained cries as he used up the last of his strength to kill that woman.

I could have killed her myself, Kaminari...you didn't have to do that.

I drink until I forget watching my boyfriend die in my arms.

I could have saved him.

I could have saved him.

I could have saved him...