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Missing you. [A lippa fanfic]

Missing you a Lippa fanfic

Phillipa Soo stood in front of a stone that was buried neatly in the ground. The rain poured hard and aggressively on her as she held her umbrella that she held in her hand. She signed as a small sad smile appeared on her face as she reached over outstretching her hand as he gazed at her fingertips over the wet grey stone.

“Hello old Friend,” She said in a hushed whisper as she spoke to the stone in the ground. The wind howled as her hair blew in her face, getting a little of it in her mouth in the process. She moved her dark brown hair out of her face as she glanced at the grave.

“It’s been a while hasn’t it” She spoke as she shook her head looking up at the sky. Phillipa let out a chuckle before looking back down and biting her lip while fumbling with the keys that were in her left pocket to her car. 

“Everyone misses you back at home, ya know” She spoke to the stone. “Daveed and Emmy got married, Thought you might like to know about that,” She said with a soft giggle biting her lip.

Her demeanor held the same expression which was full of happiness and bright but on the inside, she felt only gloom and low-spirited but she tried to manage her slightly cheerful smile to mask her true feelings.

“Yeah, They got married last week three weeks after you fell short, The wedding was nice and enticing. It was like it was straight out of a fairytale. Emmy looked so beautiful and angelic in her wedding gown and Daveed in his suit” She muttered leaning back and front a little.

“They wished you could have been there, You would have been Daveed best man and the speech you would give would be a mouthful ya know. Isn’t that right Lin'' She said letting out a broken laugh.

“Oh yeah, also Jasmine had her baby.” She hummed as she took a seat on the wet muddy ground. 

“It’s fine Old man, It’s just a bit of mud… My car and handle it” She spoke as if she was having a full-on conversation with the stone.

If people were to see her talking to herself then they would probably mistake her as insane and ship her to a mental hospital if they didn’t see the grave. 

Or maybe that would give her a bunch of weird glances her way, But she didn’t mind it.  

She was happy that she got to talk to him one last time, Though she wished that she could have done it before he passed away.

“It’s a little girl they named her Raelynn. Beautiful little angel, She has Anthony’s hair and Jasmine smile. Boy does she have a Jazzy smile.  Raelynn’s smile can brighten up a whole room if you can only see it.”

She rested her chin on her cheek. “It’s like having all your problems melt away with just one look, Expect you can’t take away my problem” She signed and looked back at the gravestone.

“Why did you have to die, Lin, Why did you have to leave me with an empty hole that can never be refilled. Dammit, Lin why did you have to leave me and our son alone.” She says as hot tears fell down her face as she tried to wipe them away.

“I miss you, Lin, I miss you so fucking much!” She shouted at his grave as she stood back up thunder booming in the background elevated her voice as she gritted her teeth together hissing.

“Why would you leave me and Xavier alone. You left your son without a fucking father, Y-y-y-yo-” Phillipa stumbled over her words as she cried out at the sky cursing at the grave that held her dead fiance. 

She didn’t understand why he didn’t tell anyone that he had Cancer. She didn’t understand why he kept that a secret from everyone and just kept on moving like it was nothing, She didn’t understand why Lin would tell her those lines of “I’ll be there with you no matter what” When Lin knew that he wouldn’t be there for them. 

All she can ask was “Why?” “Why?” “Why??”.

“Why did you have to die and Why couldn’t you have started” She quested her in hand as he bawled her hand up into a first like she wanted to punch something while she glared down at Lin’s gravestone. 

She was hurt, She was enraged, She was disappointed and mostly she was full of pain that Lin thought she wouldn’t find out about from Oak and Leslie. 

“I love you, Lin, I love and care about you so much that it hurts that you would keep what was going on with you a Secret.” She whimpered, her tone going small.

“You promised that we would tell everything to each other. You promised me” She said, whipping  a tear from her eyes.

“I was going to be there for you every step of the way, I was going to love and make sure that you were fine until the end,” she said her whole body shaking.

“If you were scared then I would be scared with you, If you were freaking out then I would be there to calm you down. I would be your pillow to rest your head and I would be the shoulder that you would cry on when you were sad and your head full of thoughts full of negative thoughts….. I would be there… I would be there for you, Lin.”

She said sniffing. “I would be there for you,” She said reciting her wedding vows that she would say going over with Renee.

“I memorized my wedding vows for that special day, Our special day… That might ever come” She said looking down taking to the ground as she stared at her feet.

“I love you Lin and No matter what through life or death. I will always love you, We all love you and we miss you even Xavier miss you” She said looking at the sky as the raindrops fell on her face.

“We’ll never forget you Lin, My love,” She said as she looking at the stone before kissing her fingers and putting it on the stone as she started to walk away from the grave sight and over to her car.

Querido miente un padre amoroso y asombroso, un amigo y un amante. Lin Manuel Miranda” was written on the gravestone 

Translation: "Dear lies a loving and amazing Father, A friend, and a Lover. Lin Manuel Miranda" was written on the stone.

(So how did i do for my first one-shot)

Don't forgot to comment what you though of it. I would love to see what y'all think of it.

See ya guys later.
Alex~