One and Only // lucas wong (#34)

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Lucas

I went back to work like a normal person even though I have just gone to a huge party last night and had a few drinks as well, it is not like I didn't have a lot of drinks and last night was something that didn't happen to me for a while. I have been cooped up with work for the past few months that I didn't meet anyone, had a drink with anyone and only went back and forth from work and my apartment.

I then realized that I needed life as well and last night was one good example of that, I should start socializing again in order to let go on of the stress that I get from work and work because I don't have a girlfriend. I let out a sigh as I finished changing into my work outfit and waiting for my clients to make their way in and I had a little time in between and my coworker Jackson gave me a little vegetable milkshake, I thanked him for that. "Thanks, bro, I didn't get to drink any of that this morning," I told him.

"Why? I thought that you would have a lot of those milkshakes stocked up in your fridge, and you would wake up early as well." I shook my head. "There was the party as well, how was the party last night?" He asked me.

I shrugged my shoulders. "It was okay, I guess but it was good to catch up with the boys and have a little drink." I avoided talking about Song Yuqi because he wasn't involved in it 7 years ago and I don't have the need to tell him that, it is not like she would know if I were to tell anyone but I just choose not to.

"Then it is a good party, stop sighing." He patted me on the back. "Did you meet any girls there?" Song Yuqi popped up in my head once again and I tried hard to get rid of that thought but I couldn't, I hesitated for too long and I didn't give an answer as well. "Is she pretty?"

"So so," I replied and I have an urge to ask him one question that has been lingering in my mind the entire morning, it has been bugging me so much. "If you were to be at a party and you met your ex-girlfriend right there and you feel something different about her, what does it mean?" I asked him.

"Did you meet your ex-girlfriend there?" He was so excited and he didn't answer my question at all.

"It wasn't me, it is my friend." I lied to him. "Just answer my question and don't care about anything else, think as if it were to be you."

"Do you mean that your heart beats really quickly when you see her?" I nodded my head. "You still love her and you want to be back together with her, there is nothing more accurate than this."

Did I never stop loving her? I told myself 7 years ago that it was the end of our relationship and I shouldn't live here anymore because we are not together and we want nothing to do with each other, that was why she moved away and went back to China right after graduation. She didn't want anything to do with me and she didn't even keep my contact number in case she wanted to call me again, she has clearly moved on with her life and she has gotten a boyfriend as well. They are going really strong and they are probably going to get married sooner or later, Song Yuqi doesn't need me in her life at all.

I was the one who was stuck in the past for the last 7 years and I can't walk out of it, I stayed in Seoul not because I didn't want to move back to my home country but I was waiting for the day where Song Yuqi would return again, I didn't date anyone for too long because Song Yuqi was in my heart and she didn't allow me to like anyone else. I was hopelessly waiting for her to come back to me and when she does, she comes back with the boyfriend card as well.

I sighed again. "You really do love that girl, it is a very bad thing." Jackson patted me on the back once again. "Do you want to have a talk later this evening?"

"It is okay," I said and I ended up sitting at a bar with him after work, chugging drink after drink and telling him everything about my relationship with Song Yuqi, from the start to the end of our relationship. I am not okay with the breakup at all because I have never wanted for this to happen at all and I still couldn't understand why she wanted to break up with me in the first place, it is a mystery and I have been thinking about it for the past 7 years and I still don't know why.

I have tried asking my close friends about this and they don't know as well, even Seo Soojin doesn't know about it and she was sad when we broke up, Song Yuqi didn't tell her anything at all. It could be because I was neglecting her for the past few months leading up to the breakup but I was just too stressed over schoolwork and she knows about it as well, so that is not the reason why we were over.

"You must have done something wrong to her, so wrong that she had to end the relationship. Maybe it is because of a persistent mother-in-law who told her to stay away from you." Jackson said. "This happens in dramas all the time but I am just throwing ideas around."

But Song Yuqi has never met my mother before, and my mother is strict over everything that concerns my life. Could that be the reason? I shrugged my shoulders and I drank even more until I feel like my world is turning dark and I couldn't see anything at all, and I heard the voice of Song Yuqi from my right side telling me to go home but I couldn't answer her at all and I don't know what exactly happened after that.