The Arcane Society

Chapter 36

January 13th, 2015: Capricorn and Self-Reflection

Capricorn
So Emalina has a rival named Capricorn, who is constantly battling her for first chair Saxophone. Though, I've heard that he's got feelings. Since she didn't know what to do, I decided to offer a little advice, but it leads into my next topic soon enough. I'll see how that turns out soon.

Self-Reflection
Alright. I feel as if I need to get this off my shoulders. I am a freak mix of a tsundere/kuudere type. Hostile, mean, cold and aloof at best.

{Tsundere: Hostile, mean and violent at first glance. Becomes loving and dedicated through time and memories. Think of it as like a piece of candy. Crunchy shell on the outside, sweet caramel center.

Kuudere: Cold, emotionless, and aloof but get sweeter as they trust you. It's like something flavorless, but once you add sugar or jam, it tastes a million times better.}

I've been trying my best to cut back on both, but I'm scared of being "stepped on." I've been bullied a lot because I was different, and I matured, if you will, faster.

There's also the fact that I can't sympathize with my schoolmates. I only see them as they categorize themselves under inflexible stereotypes. Jock, nerd, cheerleader, fashionistas, the like. They all use those who are less than them for their own satisfaction. The targets become us. The unique ones in their perfect utopia.

It's also hard to have a conversation with anyone these days without it using some sort of text lingo. Now, not saying I've never used OMG in context, but, the guys {not all, just some I see.} look for girls who have everything perfect but their mind and soul. I look for guys who have sharpened their mind and soul and my results come out empty-handed.

Perhaps I've lost a little hope for humanity.