My Rockstar

Another One Gone

"Well, Bryce, you can't just walk up to Addison and expect her to like you," Jaden says to Bryce. To be honest, I totally don't even know the topic of the conversation. I keep zoning out. "Y/n, do you think Addison likes Bryce?" Josh looks at me, "Huh? Oh, I don't know. She could." I shrug. "I'm gonna go on a walk, by myself." I look at Jaden and nod, "Okay." I smile and he gets up and leaves. "He's been really off lately," Noah says and we all nod. "Do you know anything, Y/n?" Everyone looks at me. I shake my head, "No... I don't. I asked him last night if he was okay and I got nothing out of it." I feel my phone vibrating the couch. I look at it and see my cousin is calling. Shit, I never looked at her DM. I pick up the phone and smile, "Hey!" "Hey." She says kind of like shes down. "Are you okay?" I ask and she sniffles. "Hold on, Alexis, I'll go somewhere where no one is." I stand up and Bryce looks at me confused, "Alexis?" I nod and walk into the kitchen. "Oh, you're with Bryce?" I mumble, "Mhm." She sighs, "Can you tell him what I'm going to tell you?" I look confused, "Yeah, Lex, tell me... you're worrying me." I can't see her, but I can tell she's crying. "Lex?" I say. "Uhm, My mom... Can you come to the UK?" I shake my head, "No, not with Corona. I'm signed to the same people Bryce is and we cannot travel by plane anymore. Even if they let me, I couldn't. Cali Isn't letting anyone leave." she sighs, "Oh, okay..." I wait for her to tell me what's wrong but she doesn't, "Lex, please, tell me what's up..." She sniffles again, "My mom.. or, uh, Aunt Josie. She was driving last night and another car hit her..." She pauses, "Oh my gosh, is she okay?" I hear her break down, sobbing. "S-s-she.. last night, she didn't make it to the hospital." My heart drops. Aunt Josie was another mother to me before she moved since mine was never in my life from the day I could remember. "Oh, Lex...  I am so sorry. I wish I could come, oh my god." She takes a deep breath. "No, I totally understand, we have to get together sometime as soon as we can. I got to go, I love and miss you." She hangs up before I can say anything back. "I love you too..." I mumble as tears flow down my cheeks. 

I've been standing in the same spot with my head in my hands for a long time. I also have been silently crying the whole time. I open cabinets quickly and take some alcohol and just chug two bottles. Josh comes in as I just finished my third and runs over to me, "Hey, hey, hey! What are you doing?!" I put the bottle on the counter next to the others. "My Aunt just died." He closes his eyes and sighs slowly. "I know you hate this but I truly am sorry." I smile, "Thanks." I grab another bottle and he takes it from me, "Stop it! Drinking is only taking away the pain, it won't help you." I nod, "Exactly. I want the pain away." He pulls me into a hug and yells for Bryce. I try to get out his hug but he knew what he was doing. He knew I would run when he called Bryce so he put me into a tight hug so I couldn't. "I'm sorry I had to," Josh says as Bryce takes my arm and Josh lets go and walks out of the room. "What happened?" I roll my eyes. "You can let go, I am not going to run now." He hesitates to let me go, but he does. "Aunt Josie died last night." He looks at me confused. "Wait, what?" I nod and take the alcohol Josh took from me and drink it. I put it down and look at Bryce who's just standing there, not seeming affected. "Do you not care?" He shakes his head, "No... no, I do care. I just wasn't really close to her at all. Yeah, she was like a mom to us but I was the bad, rebel, annoying, little boy. You were the adorable, perfect, little angel. She never took time out of her day to be with me. It was only you. I only saw her when you would be with me." I nod, "That's not the point, Bryce. Everyone around is fucking dying!" I start chugging the alcohol and he grabs my wrist that's holding the bottle and pushes it down. "Stop or I'll call Jaden." I shake my head, "Don't call Jaden." He laughs, "Why? Because Jaden cares about you?" He starts typing on his phone. "Stop!" he nods, "Okay." He puts his phone down and I hear the message send and look at him. "My ringer wasn't off... awkward." He clears his throat and Jaden already comes in the room fast. He sees Bryce stopping me from drinking and I groan. "Let me put it down." I look at Bryce. He nods and lets go of me. I run to my room and just as I open the door Jaden wraps his arms around my waist and picks me up. "Jaden put me down. You could hold me so I don't run just please trust me." He puts me down and holds my hand. "Please let me go to my room, alone." He shakes his head. "Jaden there's nothing in there for me to drink, so I can't drink anymore. I just want to be alone and maybe talk to Alexis or another family member. Please." He sighs. "I love you, you don't deserve this," he says into my ear as he pulls me into a hug. "I love you too." He lets go of me and I walk in my room and lock the door behind me. I look at my dresser next to me with my perfumes and lotions and stuff on top of it. My eyes tear up and I push everything off. "I won't come in but I won't go away from the door." I hear Jaden say on the other side of the door. I close my eyes and curl up in my bed. 

"Jaden?" I say as I place my hand on the door and my ear close to it. It's probably 2 am now and I wanted to see if he was there so I could go down to get a snack. "Yeah?" I sigh. "Go to bed," I say and I hear footsteps get closer to the door. "I can't leave you alone like this, baby." I smile. "Please get some sleep for me so when I come out of the room tomorrow you'll be awake." He groans. "Can I get a kiss?" He says and I smile. "Only if you promise you will let me stay in here." "Promise." I unlock the door and open it. "Hi" he smiles and I pull him into a hug. "I don't deserve you, Jaden." He rubs my back. "I don't deserve you either, princess." I smile and let go of the hug and kiss him. "Good night, I love you," I say and he moves a piece of hair behind my ear. "Good night. I love you too." I smile as he walks away and I close the door. I decide to just lay down and go to bed and eat in the morning. I get changed into comfy clothes and lay down. I fall asleep very quickly because my eyes were heavy from crying.