POSSESSIVE 22: Khairro Sanford

CHAPTER 12

CHAPTER 12

ELIZA WAS wrapped in a comforter again while sitting on the white L-shaped sofa facing the ocean. It happened again. She hurt Khairro again while they were trying to make love. She couldn't stop her body from reacting.

Kaya naman lumabas siya sa inukupa nilang kuwarto at tumambay dito sa labas. She felt so guilty. She was the one who asked, she was the one who told him to touched her, but she kept on hurting him. It may not be intentional, but she knew she's hurting Khairro.

Huminga siya ng malalim saka napatingin sa kalangitan. The night sky was already peeking.

Eliza squeezed her eyes shut and cursed the memories she couldn't forget in her past. It was not that severe before, but after what happened with Art, it became traumatic.

Akala niya hindi siya matatakot dahil si Khairro naman 'yon ... pero mukhang mas lalo lang lumala ang takot ko.

Her mind would immediately go blank and the next thing she knew, she was being violent. This was the reason why she doesn't want to be in a relationship. She'll just hurt Khairro.

Eliza blows a loud breath and tightened the comforter around her. "Dapat hindi ko na siya ayaing gawin 'yon ... kung sasaktan ko lang naman siya, mabuti nang hindi namin gawin 'yon."

Natigilan si Eliza ng makarinig ng yabag papalapit sa sofa na kinauupuan niya. Alam niyang si Khairro 'yon. Halos hindi siya gumalaw lalo na nang tumabi ng upo sa kaniya ang binata at masuyo siyang niyakap.

"Papagabi na. Lalamigin ka rito." Ani Khairro sa malambing na boses at mas lalo lang siyang nagi-guilty.

Nanatili siyang nakatingin sa karagatan. "Bakit?"

"Hmm?"

"Bakit mabait ka pa rin sakin?" Hindi napigilang tanong ni Eliza kay Khairro. "I kicked you. Twice now."

Khairro looked at Eliza who was staring guiltily at the sea. He could tell that she was really bothered by what she did.

Mas hinigpitan pa ni Khairro ang yakap kay Eliza. "I'm not hurt, turtle—"

"That's a lie to appease me." Putol ni Eliza sa sasabihin ni Khairro. "Alam kong nasaktan kita. Maybe not physically, but I'm sure I've somehow damage you emotionally."

"Emotionally? You mean my ego?" Eliza was silent and Khairro kissed Eliza's temple. "Well, I'm not perfect, so yes, I can feel my ego bruising a bit, but, it's okay, babe. I can take it. What I can't take is seeing you frightened in bed with me. I rather you kick me than force yourself to continue making love with me."

Nilingon ni Eliza si Khairro at pinakatitigan ito bago pabulong na nagsalita. "Salamat dahil ... hindi mo ako pinilit."

Khairro kissed Eliza's cheek and smiled, "I know a lot of women who had a frightening experience with men, I saw how they suffer, so as much as possible, I don't want to be the kind of man who would hurt women like that and my mom's heart will be broken for sure."

Ibinuka ni Eliza ang comforter na nakapulupot sa sarili saka ipinalibot iyon kay Khairro para magkasama sila sa loob ng comforter.

"Sorry because I kicked you again." Ani Eliza saka sumandal sa dibdib ng kasintahan. "I don't mean to do it. It just happen."

"Is that why you don't want to be in a relationship with me before?"

Tumango si Eliza. "What I did to you, hurting you like that, that's not the worse thing I could do to you — I could do more than that. I could even kill you," Eliza paused before squeezing her eyes shut, "there's evil inside of me, Pangit. It's so evil that I'm scared of what I could do to you."