Chasing the Heart's Pursuit (Heart Series #1) - COMPLETED

Chapter 37

MESS

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Just when I thought that everything is going well, something messed up the whole thing again.

Papa's medical diagnosis fell into Advanced Cardiomyopathy. We've found a heart donor but it was found out to be incompatible with Papa's. Aside from that, the family of the heart donor objects to the idea of giving their son's heart to a stranger. That's what the Department of Surgery of Saint Therese Medical Center told us.

For the first time, I questioned God.

Why does He had to offer us hope and then get it back?

Why does He had to make Papa suffer like this?

Why? Just... why?

Mas lalo lang kaming nanlumo nang malaman naming na umaabot ng anim na buwan para sa paghihintay. Unluckily, the most common waiting time for a new heart donor reaches up to more than 6 months. Can you believe it?! Six fucking months!

We can't do anything but wait!

We've exhausted every possible way just for that heart donor.

But, reality has its own way of slapping back us always.

"Audrey..."

Naputol ang mga iniisip ko nang magsalita si Kuya Doji sa tabi ko.

Funny how a person can be drowned on his own thoughts. Funny how a single thought devastates a person. Funny how quickly happiness can be taken away from you. Funny how things become all mixed-up in just a short period of time.

Katulad ko ngayon. Nalulunod sa lahat ng tumatakbo sa aking isipan. These days, a powerful mind is truly extra-ordinary because battles nowadays are much often happening inside.

I gave Kuya Doji a glanced. He's trying to smile. Though, I know better. I would not be called intelligent if I'm not.

How I wished I can tell Kuya Doji to stop it. That he can cry when it's too much. Ang hindi alam nila Kuya, nakita ko silang nag-uusap. Kuya Doji was crying so hard. Kuya Samuel is shaking and his eyes are red.

What a hypocrite, Mory!

Telling other people to cry when you're afraid to do so!

"Pwede ka na munang umuwi sa apartment mo ngayon. You have a class tomorrow, right?" he asked.

"Ayos lang, Kuya. I can handle it," I firmly told Kuya Doji.

He patted my head. "Audrey, I'm here. School's also important. Two months from now, you'll be graduating."

"Pero – " I objected.

Kuya Doji smiled. "Nandito na naman ako. Magiging maayos din ang lahat, Audrey."

That is when my face hardened. I can clearly see the dark spot under Kuya's eyes.

Kuya, why can't you just cry in front of me, too?

He urged me to still. "Huwag na matigas ang ulo. Kung hindi, pahihirapan ko 'yang Edson mo ulit. Sige ka," banta niya.

I jokingly glared at him.

"Graduate, Audrey. Alam kong 'yan ang gugustuhin ni Papa ngayon."

I had no choice but to follow Kuya's order. I've been contemplating so hard. Nakakabawi na naman ako sa school. My quizzes improved as well my as case-based scenarios. Nahihiya na lang ako minsan kay Edson. He would always go to my apartment just to share to me his reviewers. He's also helping me in making my projects. Tinatanong ko nga siya kung bakit ang dami niyang oras na tulungan ako kahit na katulad lang naman kami ng mga gagawin.