FINALLY READY
20
Jealousy. Unbelievable, really.
I can't believe that I actually found a time to think about it or more so, feel it. Back then, I spent my time watching movies related to science or read adventured-centered novels like the famous Lemony Snicket's A Series of Unfortunate Events.
Funny how time changes everthing. Funny how people changes everything to be exact. Just like how the Bauldelaires' lives changed when their parents perished from a terrible fire and how Count Olaf followed them from one home to another to get ahold of their enormous fortune. Indeed, life changes for different reasons. Be it circumstances, be it money or be it people.
I sighed heavily while lying in my bed. Hindi ko man lang nabuksan yung mga libro ko para sa lunes kasi nauubos na ang oras ko sa paulit-ulit na pag-aalala kay Edson. Ganito pala ito. Iyong mga nararamdaman mo kailangan mo pala talagang intindihin. Kailangang ipalabas. Because, the more you held it in, the more it'll mess up your system, your entire being at that.
Katulad sa isang bulkan, mas napapanatag pagkatapos pumutok yung isang bulkan kasi alam mong hindi na ito puputok sa mga nalalapit na taon. The more a volcano held in pressure and heat, the stronger the earthquake that it will cause.
I shifted from one position to another. A series of thoughts are really gushing in my mind right now. But, at least, I was able to realize my feelings for Edson. This is better that keeping it inside me anyway.
Natigil lamang iyong pag-iisip ko nang tumunog yung telepono ko sa lamesa. Nakita kong tumatawag si Kuya Doji. Napaisip din akong matagal na pala akong hindi nakauwi sa amin. Since, the start of the second semester I think. Now, I feel guilty. A lot has happened and I haven't told my family about it. The holdaping incident and others.
"Audrey..." bungad ni Kuya Doji.
"Yes, Kuya?" I asked him.
Bumuntong-hinga si Kuya sa kabila. "Ganyan ka na ba ka busy diyan? Hindi mo man lang ako tinawagan."
"Ah, hindi naman Kuya. Pasensiya na po, maraming lang po talagang ginagawa." Paliwanag ko kay Kuya.
Nakaupo na ako sa upuan kaharap ng mesa. Maybe, I should go home this weekend. I miss my room in our house. I miss the ambiance of our house. Nakakahiya man sabihin, nami-miss ko na din sila Kuya at Papa.
"How about this week? Baka gusto mong umuwi muna, Audrey. I promise, ihahatid kita sa Monday para hindi ka malate." Dagdag ni Kuya.
Naglalambing na naman si Kuya Doji. Ganito kasi siya palagi. Minsan, nag-ayaya siyang manuod ng discovery channel or any documentaries na kasama ang mga scientist and mathematicians. Minsan, naman nagpapatulong siya sa mga projects niya. Kahit alam niya na naman kung papaano gawain. I noticed that whenever I become busy with school and spent less time with him, he'll always look for activities for us to do.
I laughed at Kuya's promise. "Okay po, kuya. Mag-aayos na po ako ng gamit para maaga po ako bukas."
"By the way, do you want me to fetch you tomorrow?" He offered.
Mabilis akong umiling kahit hindi naman ako nakikita ni Kuya.
"Okay lang po."
I know Kuya supposed to go to work every 8:00 A.M. Kahit na medyo malapit lang naman yung General Santos City sa Tupi, alam kong mapapagod pa si Kuya. May trabaho pa naman siya ng Saturday.
Kuya conceded. "Fine. You take care and see you tomorrow, Audrey."
Napasimangot na lang ako. Ilang beses ko ng sinasabi kay Kuya na ayaw ko nga ng Audrey, pangbabae. It screams weakness and it sounded so weak. But still, Kuya is adamant to call me that.
I can her Kuya's laugh and giggles over the phone. "You're my Audrey, always. Ibaba ko na. Matulog ka na din. Bye."
"Bye, Kuya."
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I dragged my things out of my apartment. I have to go to the bus terminal early or else it will get crowded and it will be harder for me to find a seat. Since it's Saturday, it is expected that a lot of students like me will travel. Probably, to go home too.
I looked at the people passing by. Some busy on their phones, some busy talking to others, and some busy doing their assigned works like the bus drives, inspectors and condoctors.
I sat on the first set of seats. The front is my favorite. Although for some, it may seem dangerous and unsafe. I don't know, maybe it is because it is nearer to the bus driver and the doors. It is easier to point out my desired bus stop.
I looked at the the side. From the busy streets and highways of General Santos City to the peaceful land of small municipalities. I can vividly see the wide plantation of pineapple. A sign that you've reached Polomolok City, the recently proclaimed City from being a Municipality.
Then to my hometown, the landmark that you can use aside from the obvious signage that you've entered Tupi are the fruit stands displaying fresh fruits and flowers. After all, Tupi is known as the fruit and vegetable basket of South Cotabato.
The drive seems so short. It is really true. Mas bumibilis yung oras kung hindi ka masyadong nagmamadali. Mas nagiging maiklli ang biyahe kung hindi mo masyadong iniisip.
"Central bus stop lang, ho," sabi ko sa bus driver.
After a little while, the bus stopped and I said thank you. Kahit hindi ko man aminin, iba pa rin talaga kapag tahanan mo. Ibang klaseng seguridad ang nararamadam mo. You feel attached to the ground and you feel accustomed to the coldness of the winds that embrace you.
"Mabuti naman at nakarating ka na, Mory. Your Kuya Doji told me about it. He even asked your Nana Selya to prepare your favorite food for dinner." Papa smiled as he saw me.
"Opo. Maaga po akong umalis kanina," I said while getting my Papa's right hand. Kailangan kasi talaga ang magmano.
"Alright. Ayusin mo muna yung gamit mo sa kuwarto mo. Pinalinisan ko na iyan kay Dareng kaya pwedi ka din munang magpahinga," dagdag ni Papa.
Nana Selya and Dareng are our househelps. Si Nana Selya ang nakalakihan na ni Papa. Kaya may pagkamatanda na siya at mas kilala na ang pamilya naming. Si Dareng naman, ilang taon lang ang tanda sa akin. Siya naman ang nakaatas para maglinis. Tuwing linggo lamang siya pumapasok sa paaralan, hindi kasi pweding araw-araw kasi walang matitira sa bahay. Sa Open High School Program siya na programa pumapasok sa Tupi National High School.
At last, dinner came. Magkasunod na dumating sila Kuya Samuel at Kuya Doji.
The moment Kuya Doji saw me. He hugged me so tight. Kuya Samuel as well while smiling a little at me. Over dinner, we had talked about a lot of things. My school, my brother's work where both of them worked at Koronadal City, a city like GenSan but on the opposite way. Papa shared about his day also at farm and his business transaction.
Over-all, the two days brought me peace of mind. I realized that the little things are the ones that makes us sometimes as a whole. Little talks to clear our minds and sort things out. Just like in my case.
As Monday came again and Kuya Doji sent me back to my apartment. I smiled because fulfillment.
Last time, sinabi ko kay Edson na maghintay siya until I sort my feelings out. Ngayon handa na ako. I'm finally ready.
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Note:
Hello, again. This might be the longest update that I've written so far. I just feel like I should introduce my hometown to all you without compromising the flow of the story.
I also just feel so happy about everything. Just like what Mory is feeling right now.
Stay safe during this dark time.
Lovelots,
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