شرر Sharar

Thirty Two

Itni shikayat late kaha se ho..
Ishq karte ho ya hisab

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"Ayla!..." Rubab entered Ayla's took to talk to her, but stopped on Midway when found her crying on her study table

"Ayla! Kya hua?" Worriedly, she went to Ayla and asked

(What happened?)

"Mamma!" Ayla got startled seeing her mother there. Wiping her tears, Ayla turned to her. "Nothing, I'm fine."

"Fine? Hume toh nahi lag rahi Hain." Rubab looked at her state then said.

(You don't look fine to me.)

With Ayla's red eyes and messy hair, she looked really broken

"Mamma, sar dard ho raha tha bas." Ayla quickly told her half truth.

(It's just a headache.)

"Sar dard? Isliye mana karte Hain ki itni raat ko jaag ke kaam mat kara kariye. Par majjal Hai Jo dono behne humari sunn lein kabhi." Rubab started scolding her.

(Headache? That's why I always stop you from doing any work at night. But both of you don't listen to me.)

Ayla looked down which soften Rubab's heart

"Idhar aaiye, hum massage Kar dete Hain apka sar." Rubab softly said

(Come here, I'll massage your head.)

Ayla sat on floor while Rubab on bed and opened Ayla's hair from bun,

"Ayla," applying oil in Ayla's hair, Rubab called her. In return, Ayla only hummed

"Kuch hai jo aap humse chupa rahi hain?" Rubab asked

(Is there something which you are hiding from me?)

"Nahi toh...." Ayla, who has closed her eyes and was enjoying her mother's hands softly massaging her scalp, opened her eyes and quickly refused

(No....)

"Ayla, maa hoon main tumhari. Tum nahi kahogi tab bhi samajh jaungi ki koi cheez tumhe pareshaan kar rahi Hai."

(I'm your mother, Ayla. Do you really think that I won't know there is something bothering you.)

"Kuch nahi, mamma, bas...." Ayla started saying, but she couldn't bring herself to talk about Kaif and her to her mother and made Rubab worry

(Nothing, mamma... It's just....)

"Pata hai, Ayla, insaan sabse zyada bechain tab hota Hai jab khud se bhi cheeze chupane lagta Hai." Rubab understood Ayla's inner turmoil

That's the thing about mother, she always understands her kids anxiety even if the kid doesn't say it, she just do. Maybe because a part of her lives in her kid

"I'm not hiding anything from myself. It's just... Kaif aur humare beech.... Bohot se difference ho gaye Hain Jo... Jo dooriyan bana rahi Hain humare beech...."

(Kaif and I.... We have lots of difference between us...which is... Which creat distance between us.)

"Difference? Beta, Miya biwi mein dooriyan tab ati hain Jab woh kisi teesre ko apne rishte mein jagah de dete Hain. Woh teesra insaan bhi ho sakta ya expectations. Aur, beta, jaha expectations ghar bana leti Hain, waha insaan apni haqeeqat dekhta hi nahi."

(Difference? Dear, distance comes between husband and wife when they give place for third person. The third person could be one's expectations. And when expectations made place in between a couple, they refused to accept their reality.)