شرر Sharar

Sixty-Seven

Bas meri mohabbat hi na samajh ayi ussey
Baki har galti ka hisab rakhti hai woh.

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Tum bhi ishq kamal karte ho
Pehle barbad karte ho, fir sawal karte ho

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"Mamma, bas! Hum itna nahi kha payenge." On breakfast table, when Rubab refilled Ayat's plate again with food, she exclaimed, putting her hands over her plate so Rubab won't put more food.

(Mamma, enough, I can not eat this much.)

"Aaj kal aap bohot kam kha rahi hain, Ayat. Weight dekha hai apna, kitni kamzor ho gayi ho. Batak jaise munh ho gaya hai apka, kha lijiye yeh sab." Rubab didn't hear a word from her, as she filled her glass with juice.

(You are eating less these days, Ayat. Have you check your weight, you look weak. Your face is as small as a duck. You have to eat all of this.)

"But humse itna nahi khaya jayega." Ayat made an innocent face.

(But I can not eat this much.)

"Mamma, don't force feed her, she will throw up. Jitna amount woh kha rahi hain kafi hai unke liye, uppar se woh medicines bhi toh le rahi hain." Ayla told her mother, she was eating her breakfast alone. Azrin demanded to eat breakfast with Kaif today, Ayla had to take her to Huzaifa's house. Rukhsar invited her too, but Ayla refused. Now, she felt alone, she was used to feeding Azrin breakfast.

(She is eating enough for her nutrients. And she takes medicines too.)

"Toh fir yeh din ba din itni kamzor kyu ho rahi hain? Ankhein dekhiye, itne dark circles toh panda ke bhi nahi hote." Sitting down, Rubab asked to Ayla.

(Then why she is getting weak? Look at her eyes, even Pandas don't have this huge dark circles.)

"Batak! Ab Panda? Aap log ko sarey janwar humi mein kyu dikhte hain?" Ayla and Rubab ignored her whining.

(Duck! Now Panda? Why do you see all animals in me?)

"Shayad stress ki wajah se." Looking at Ayat, Ayla guessed.

(Maybe because of stress.)

"Haan, stress toh bohot hai." Ayat nods her head, thinking about Kabir and Shyra, all night she thought of what she could do to help them, but no idea came to her mind. Just one, she has to make soft spot in Shyra's heart for Kabir, but how? She needs to figure this out.

(Yes, I am stressed.)

Ayla gave Rubab a pointed look, then left, she didn't feel like eating anything.

"Kaisa stress?" Rubab asked.

(What are you stressed about?)

"Aap nahi samjhogi, 2 zindagiyo ka sawal hai." Picking up the juice glass, Ayat told her.

(You won't understand, it is about 2 lives.)

"Balki 2 kyu? 4, hum bhi toh hain." She whispered to herself. Now, thinking about Hanan. Her whisper was audible enough to reach Rubab's ears.

(In fact 4 lives, not 2.)

"Kon 2 4 zindagi? Ayat, aap kya keh rahi hain?" Rubab was confused.

(What 2 4 lives? Ayat, what are you saying?)

"Woh... woh hum Barfi ki baat kar rahe the, aur unki family. Pata nahi kiske ghar ke hain, waha kya khate hain kya nahi, hum toh yaha jo banta hai de dete hain kahi koi cheez unhe nuksan na kar de."