butterflies. [ninjago oneshots)

Her. (Lloyd and Harumi)

Lloyd stood in complete shock, his body freezing up and feeling the coloyur drain from his own voice as the voice that caused him so much pain rattled his name like a snake. His eyes were wide and his pupils were small, and he felt like passing out, even if he was in a videogame.

The sword shook in his weakened grasp as he stepped back. Stepped away from her. The 'princess' that ruined his mental health for so long to the point where his own heart felt like it was shattered into a million pieces and all that he could do was lay in bed and feel guilty. Feel guilty about something that he slowly learnt wasn't his fault.

His body finally melted back into movement, and immediately he sraightened himself up and pulled out his sword, the colorful object shining against the windows and making Harumi squint.

She quickly shook her head and regained her sight and opened her eyes again, seeing a very angry Lloyd ready to strike at her.

"Harumi,"

"Lloyd."

God, even her voice sounded like shit. When will she learn that not everyone wants to hear her snide voice make their ears bleed? Or did she just not get enough attention from her parents-..

The blonde still felt the shock of the situation develop a little black hole at the bottom of his stomach. After years, he was still worried about her ruining his life again? She's dead!

..But she's standing right in front of him as if a roof and a sheeting on rubble didn't collapse on top of her.

Lloyd quickly realised that this was a game. Harumi is not real, she can't come back.

Yet he's worried, still.

The amount of physical and mental trauma she had caused for not just him, but also his family was unreal, and sometimes he wanders if he'll ever fully recover from her sneaky and heartbreaking little tricks and plans. The only postive that will light his spirits up is that she can't get into contact with hs father anymore. For one, she's dead (?), and second, Garmadon has left them alone, to do his own thing. That Lloyd hopes isn't something bad. But he seems okay and happy, and he helped the Ninja from the Oni, so Lloyd can't hate him, nor like him.

But with Harumi, he just feels complete pain and anger when he looks into her eyes. Those eyes that have seen enough themselves, but then crave to see others suffer too.

The former princess had her own parents sacfrice themselves for her during the Great Devourer attacking, and Lloyd sympathizes with that. The whole team does, all of them have parent problems. Cole doesn't have a mother, Jay is adopted and is still dumbfounded and upset on why his real parents left him, Kai and Nya's parents were took away from them when they were literal toddlers, Zane's father has been locked away and hidden from the outside world, and now dead, and even Lloyd still has problems accepting the fact his father can no longer be fully redeemed, and now only a sheel of his Sensei form lays in his heart.

Even then, it doesn't give you the right to make other people go through heartbreak and depression!

'There's only so much a person can take.'

There's only so much Lloyd can take, and he knows damn well that Harumi appearing out of no where in a video game wasn't helping in the slightest.

And he understands that grief and/or trauma can shape people into many things, he's seen it occur to his friends, family and even himself. Growing up so fast, literally and mentally leaves a scar on you, he was eight when he had to become the Green Ninja, and the other Ninja were barely teenagers themselves. Having to basically become adults when you haven't even had a proper childhood yet makes you feel things that you shouldn't be feeling at your age, and so on.

Every second that passed by once he found out Harumi was The Quiet One, he had felt..incomplete. As if he felt a genuine connection to her and that he..loved her.

The Ninja were trying to avoid the SoG, and Lloyd had literally fell head over heels for one that would later release his father.

He beats himself up over it, he believes that he was the one stupid enough to crush on the Princess when little did he know she was collecting information from him. He didn't even bother to at least try and interrogate her.

Lloyd sighed shakily, he just wants to go home. Away from this videogame, away from Unagami, away from her.

"Lloyd, I'm sorry."